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10 years ago
My darling, sweetest angel boy Peppercorn, who we've had since he was a kitten 5 years ago, died in an extremely traumatic and unexpected way a couple of days ago and I'm incredibly fucked up over it. I've never cried this much in my entire life. I've lost pets before, cats and dogs, in various ways, but nothing like this. Absolutely nothing this awful. I'm so incoherent with grief. Every time I see the little clay pawprints we got from the emergency vet after his euthanasia or his toy basket, or even things like doritos (he'd always pester us while we ate them because he loved to lick the cheese off of the chip) or sponges/soft brushes (he'd steal them), I just tear up. I just cried for an hour thinking about holding him.
Basically things are really Not Great here but in general I've been trying hard to draw more, be more productive... I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle sometimes. Now I'm just trying to take some time to recover and grieve. It's fucking brutal.
Really random, upset journal here but I don't know if anything I've done the past couple of days makes sense. I don't know. I'm trying to find comfort wherever I can, I suppose.
Basically things are really Not Great here but in general I've been trying hard to draw more, be more productive... I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle sometimes. Now I'm just trying to take some time to recover and grieve. It's fucking brutal.
Really random, upset journal here but I don't know if anything I've done the past couple of days makes sense. I don't know. I'm trying to find comfort wherever I can, I suppose.
For sure take some time, don't rush yourself <3
A few months ago I lost my cat Murphee very suddenly, he was about the same age. :c I have never cried so much over a pet. It's so hard to lose family members. My deepest condolences friend, I hope that you can find your groove again. Art can be very healing as I'm sure you know <3
Feel better soon lady bro!
You've been through this before, but it never gets easier. I hope you find yourself able to find comfort soon.
I don't know if this would work for you, but I often try to make drawings to commemorate the animals I've lost when I feel really beat up over it... It's a way to remember them, and express that love, I think c: (but grieving is different for everyone in different circumstances, you know what works for you better than I do)
Here's a song that I remember you liking. Hope it brings some nice feelings, at least... Take care of yourself! And remember, no matter what happened, your kitty loved you a lot, and you took excellent care of him. I'm positive that he had a good life, and loved being with you guys. Though it's really hard right now, remember the great times you had; nothing can truly take those away. :>
Im so sorry
Do you still have my skype? Cause hey if you need to I have all the time rn
:c <3
I'm always here for either of you if you ever need anyone to listen or anything. ♡ I've always cared about you guys.
I just lost Merlin recently, one of my first pets ever. It is hard but it gets better...
Just know that it's okay to grieve, but try to keep positive, I think our fur babies would hate to see us too sad ♡
I'm so sorry for your loss, I wish there was more I could do but I'm here if you need me. And I mean that, I'll give you my number even if you guys ever need someone to talk to.
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