Have you ever had like.. a mental breakdown when realizing that it's okay if you don't amount to anything and that you can do anything you want because you don't HAVE to do anything?


I've had this issue growing up, where I've always told myself that I'll be better than my siblings that I'll "amount to something" and I think I've just had the realization that it doesn't fucking matter as long as I'm satisfied with where I am and doing things that I enjoy.

And unfortunately that ends up being channeled into my art, this feeling of "it needs to become something". I've become convinced that my art needs to amount to something, needs to succeed, needs to x, y, z. When in truth it doesn't. My art doesn't have to be ANYTHING. It can just be a leg or a butt or some colors on a canvas for all that it matters.

I had a long and emotional talk with my partner last night, and let me tell you there was a lot of crying while I told myself that it's okay because this has been something that my entire life has been based around and that I'm having to come to terms with. I kind of feel like I must not be the only one in this boat and there are other people who feel the same way, and I just want to say

ITS OKAY.
ITS OKAY to not live up to other people's expectations.
ITS OKAY to not live up to your OWN expectations.
ITS OKAY to not finish an art piece because it doesn't feel right.


Don't start an art piece already focusing on the finished product.
Experiment, have fun with it, enjoy the ride.


And it's okay, because I'm here for you too. ;u;