I haven't felt like this in awhile, but I'm somewhat sad to the point of tears. Not sure what caused this. My mind does tend to wander a bit, and I end up finding myself wishing that things were like they used to be. And I'm starting to miss a few people too. There's also the financial issues I am having. I really believe I won't have money to give gifts to my family and that's making me really sad too. I've tried saving money, but something always comes up; extra bills, my car, etc. The idea of me finding my own place is slowly slipping away, but at least, we're not fighting at home anymore. I'm hoping it'll pass soon. I cannot afford to be upset today. It's a busy day for me. I'm coming in on one of my days off to help with two major events at work. A Christmas Party for the Residents at the Nursing home I work at and then Open House for Residents and their families. Then I have a memorial for residents who have passed away this month and the Employee Christmas party. Tuesday is another Christmas Party...Secret Santa with an Elvis impersonator coming in to sing.

I haven't really been in the mood to appear online or go to the chats I once used to enjoy. I don't roleplay very much anymore nor have I had the desire to work on the roleplay world I created a few years ago. And I'm starting to wonder if I should disappear from here too. The last few journals I've written up didn't get many replies so that just makes me believe that no one bothers to read them. I doubt anyone will read this one either. Perhaps I should really just disappear completely. I won't really be missed...I can guarantee that...