So I really just felt like writing a short update on what's been going on for me in the last few weeks. As some of you might know I suffer from severe depression and anxiety to the point where I am now taking medication against it. When I first thought about seeking proffesional help I was skeptical about it thinking that I would just be ignored or told that it would pass like I had been told in the past. However I decided to seek proffessional help when I reached a stage where I was contemplating suicide each and every day and night. So I talked to a doctor who gave me medication and also set up meetings with a psychologist so that I would get to talk to someone. At fist I felt very uncomfortable talking to her and only really answered basic questions. However after a few appointments we started to talk about the topic of happiness and she asked me if I knew what made me happy. A friend of mine online had suggested to me that I would tell her about my ab/dl side since I always said that it was one of the few things that made me really happy. So I did and she seemed to be quiet interested in it and I went about explaining the basics of it like why it made me happy and how I did it and what ab/dl involved. I can honestly say that from the combination of talking to my psychologist aswell as my medication I rarely have "dark" thoughts anymore. Sure sometimes I get an episode where I contemplate hurting myself but it usually only lasts a few hours instead of the days and weeks it used to last.

However I can't give all the credit for my feeling better to just my medication and psychologist I also have to thank someone who has become a very good friend to me  Haruko_HeartFire who started out by simply offering to be able to talk to me when I was feeling down. However he has been a great friend not only listening to my problems but also just being there to talk to me sometimes.

But yeah that's pretty much it. I still have issues every so often but it's almost never as bad as it used to be. I am hoping that maybe one day I can be rid of my depression that I have been suffering from since I was 10. But untill that day I'll just have to keep my chin up and hope for the best ^_^