Okay so I've kinda not checked here in a while. Life got me busy with other things and I wasn't really able to check things out online. My attention and focus was all on offline stuff and I honestly didn't even think of getting on to check anything. Holiday time always makes me a sort of reclusive forgetful bee that's easy to aggro anyways so the break had been good. After the holidays my head will be less foggy and hopefully my life less busy and hectic as well. Been learning some really neat things about my family history though so that's totally made it worth it.

I'm also forcing myself to find a better way to deal with things so one thing that I've come up with is just to pretend my life is a JRPG and the little things that are beyond my control are enemies. Art block is now Lesser Art Gnomes because that just sounds easier to beat than at block. Meditation it's also becoming a daily ritual for me as well as actually eating regularly and keeping myself to a set sleep schedule. No more horror movies to fall asleep to now it's only chanting, rainfall and singing bowls. Slowly finding myself covering to Buddhism as well which really surprised me as I'm not a religious or spiritual person anymore. Buddhism is striking a right chord in my heart though. It's been nice to discover this part of me. Really excited though as all my traditional art stuff has been returned to me after 2 years of having to have it in storage. You guys have no idea how happy I am too finally have all my pens and pencils back in my tiny claws. Had to order a few pens as they had dried out over the period of not being used. Might be getting a new job soon so that's super exciting and I'm really going it happens. Also my interest in furry is dwindling and it's honestly something that's been happening more rapidly over the past few years. Since my husband died I've lost most interest in the fandom. It doesn't hold the same feelings it used to to me. I was never really super into the fandom to begin with but I liked the people that were around. My time on this account may be kind of blotchy now with periods of inactivity with furry art. I'm more interested in developing a more realistic style and focusing on humans. I'll still be on this account just don't get surprised if I don't post anything for a long while. I'm still going to be around just in other accounts here that are linked to on my page. Probably mostly the gore, fetish and human accounts as those are currently my artist interests. Might possibly start a comic serious and put it on my empty account I'm thinking of converting from a craft account to comics because I really like keeping things separated. Compartmentalize everything! But yeah,I actually plan on experimenting with a lot of things now that I've allowed myself to buy feel like I'm bogged down by only focusing on furry art. A huge chunk of my resentment towards my own drawings has come from feeling obligated to only draw majority furry art which has caused a lot of tension in me. Accepting myself for wanting to move to other subjects has been very freeing. I still enjoy furry art I just don't want that to be my only talent. Hope you all can understand everything. Sorry for the long winded journal I just had a bit to say I guess. Anywho, if something's important or you just want to chat send me a note. Still kind of feeling reclusive so do excuse if it takes me a moment to get back to you.