*sighs* allright all things have gotten worse and so close to my birthday on the 8th and I cant deal with it.....*sighs*

Apparently my grandfather is having complications.....I just found out threw some messages left on my cell phone....
Just got off the phone with my grandmother and will be heading back to St Lukes to see him....
He is apparently in bad shape and they dont know how much longer he has got....

This is another reason for me to be depressed on my birthday....I dont want him to go but part of me think it probly best as he wont suffer anymore...I am no good with hospitals and will be stepping foot into one soon. I am not sure what will happen or what I am going to do....I might not be on much for awhile....because I have enough trouble coping but will try and get on. Hopefully things turn out allright....not sure if they will the operation went well....now he is back in....dont know what to think we where given some hope with the operation but now....ohh well I have to go I need to get to the hospital my uncle and my grandmother are there and possibly some cousins.....
I dont...
*sighs*
I have to go


 Tobu