I don't know if i've ever mentioned this before, but I've grown up with a fair amount of verbal abuse from my mother.
As a child it was ok, yelling was actually rare until we moved and everything kinda went to shit for my mom, it was a bad time financially and with her hoarding tendencies starting back up and me being a weird kid with A.D.D. going threw the awkward transition between child and teenager it was just a bad scene all around, and there are still some walls between us because of it (I'm not sure she's fully aware of it, if she is I think she tries not to be).
Anyways, i'm out now, and my mom and I have a far better relationship now than we ever did since we moved out here.

But even today yelling can be a pretty fucked up thing for me to deal with when sober. But tonight I did a stupid thing and got drunk with a co-worker and his friends who I hardly know and don't altogether have good opinions of (well really much of any opinions of), long story short his friend ends up driving us all home after I got stupid drunk (off of a shot and a bottle because i'm a lightweight) and my co-worker and I got in a heated argument over a movie I liked and he didn't. Now me being a stupid jackass normally, now X10 when im drunk ended up saying "Well then I guess we can't be friends anymore, I'm leaving" and took off my seatbelt and went for the door handle while the car was still moving.

I'll stop here for a moment to mention that I live a little out in the sticks where half the population of our town is old people who go to bed at 8:00pm, so there are no other cars to be seen or heard from at the hour we were all going back home, also Idk this is a joke my friends and I pull on each other all the time just to be jackasses, hell my mother (and my roommate's mother) have even made us open the door and slam it shut real quick while the cars moving whenever it's not shut tight enough (hell i've even done it on a highway (NOT RECOMMENDED, I was lucky)).

So the reaction I expected was maybe nervous laughs at worst, maybe some "you're a crazy motherfucker" looks, but full out rage yelling was not expected, like first his friend driving us got super angry at me and the rest of them joined in, telling me how stupid I was. I quickly apologise, clicking my seatbelt in frantically as they all continue to rage at my drunken stupidity.

It took everything I had to not cry in front of them, I was so fucked up over it and my drunken mind was not handling it well, my roommate thought something way worse happened to me when I got back because I was apologizing to everyone and I had a messed up look on my face with a weary tone I guess...

Idk to me that seemed like a total overreaction on their part. Maybe I've just grown up irresponsibly, I don't fucking know.... I'm never drinking with pricks I don't know as good friends again.

Shit fucking night.