With the New Year approaching I plan to make some significant changes in my life including here on FA. To some of you it might not make a lick of difference but to a small few it may mean a whole lot more. A New Year brings a new beginning for my OC's and the chance to set it all right in one coherent universe as I had always planned. This might be a lengthy journal but if you truly want to get to know me and what fuels my motivations keep reading. I'm bearing my soul and keeping no truths from you. The obvious and repeated yes I am transgender for the billionth time not withstanding, let us begin.

1. Why do you draw that funky shit you draw?

I grew up with brothers and we all loved watching horror movies. The likes of Cronenberg, Barker, King, Romero, and Craven were our idols and naturally as I pursued my storytelling it would feature heavily the themes of body modification, eternal damnation, and transformations having an impact on the characters involved. Sure I could go the happy transformations where everything returns to normal but you've seen that a million times over.

2. Why do you keep asking for ideas repeatedly? Why don't you ever utilize them?

There's a little selfishness behind that. Usually when I feel defeated by life, which lately is quite a bit considering the stress and pressures I'm under with family and work I lose passion. I lose the desire to do much of anything. I retreat and hide away and find myself swimming in depression and dismay. When I come back to the things I love I don't have the spark or energy or the mind-power to kick-start my drive so I utilize all of you to help reignite those passions. The thing of it is, and you've probably heard me vent my frustrations on this in an earlier journal, but whenever I begin to put your ideas to paper another event occurs in my life that twists me up and adds to the burdens I'm already trying to overcome. It's a sick cosmic joke if you ask me and one that I hope has ended for a very long time. In any event I did manage to illustrate the Egg-sack concept so there's that.

3. Are you ever going to really end Bliss and some of your other unfortunate characters permanently?

To some degree yes. Not every OC will become fodder but some will. I know I've put my foot where my mouth is on several occasions but as I said a new year means a new me and a new direction for most if not all my OC's. There are a couple of people I collaborate with who I have shared an interest with in regards to putting the final nail in my characters coffin with and should I pursue it they will be the first to know. That being said don't take my permanence thing as the real deal unless I've truly confirmed it in a specific submission, and you will not have any doubts as to it's validity because I will make it explicitly known when a character is through. For example, She-Cat? I have a lot of storytelling to do with her so she isn't probably going to end up a permanent egg-sack in the near future if at all but it's a wild fate to imagine for an alternate universe type of thing. But one never knows until a story is fleshed out.

4. DO these twisted scenarios get you off?

Ahem... cough cough! Honestly? I draw porn for a living and as much as I enjoy it, it's a job and I don't really find it as erotic or sexual as I may have in the beginning. There will come a scenario in a story where I find myself gasping in awe and a little tingly at the though of being put in that situation. I have a great pair of writers in Karmagik and Darth BAW for the titles I work on. (over at jabcomix.com) I feel much the same when it comes to my submissions or concepts here on FA. Not all that I've drawn are a particular fetish of mine but I work on commissions so I will draw with equal passion. Putting it bluntly? Yes a few scenarios and subject matter get me turned on (Who isn't turned on by a few kinks?) but overall it's just something fun and creative to draw. I tend to draw things not normally seen because it's a challenge to design such grotesque fates or transformation. Because it pushes my creativity and my imagination to it's limits trying to see how things become so twisted.

5. Will you ever do commissions again?

Yes! Thank you for your patience and as you may have read if you're keeping tabs on me is that currently with the enormous weight and stress of family issues on top of work and my own worries such as bills and car maintenance it's been difficult to find spare time to begin opening commissions slots, but hopefully in the near future as things begin to return to normal I will eagerly open commissions again. Just be patient with me.

6. Can I ask you anything in the comments?

I implore you, if you're curious or want to get to know me ask away! Don't be shy and I'm open to answering just about anything. I hope this helped in any way to put me in some sort of contextual light. If not then feel free to ask me something you feel needs answering.