Yeah as I said in the comment on the image, glad to see you back but sorry to hear about all your health problems. Cant even fathom how it is like. I hope that you find a good doctor that can help you with this. Hope 2016 will be a good year, I guess everyone is fed up with 2015 at this point for various reasons.

Yeah, i can see that. Right now all i can do is the bitter grind of bureaucracy and grit.

I figured it would be something about your health but I didn't think it would be this bad. Normally I would say I hope you get better soon and I would wish you well with getting help with your neurological issues down the road into 2016. But I really need you to get better, we as the community need you to get better, healthier, and stronger. Your art is too much of a gem for it to end abruptly and especially to have a commission from me be the last thing you ever did. People might blame me on cause your health @.@;; . But weak ass jokes aside do what you have to do to fix this, health is no joke especially in this country and getting back on your art should be a slow process and should not be a strain. Do the best you can to get better, a new diet, rest more, search out good physicians. Your health is what we all want from you to improve and we await your return to the spot light.

Yeah, and everybody keeps looking at me screwy eyed. I had to go to an urgent health facility today for a new surprise problem, but that one was treatable, no buggy. But talking to the doctor there kinda helped lay out my cards and just how weak they are.
Likely it'll be months till i can even see a GP and months more until i can schedule an appointment with a neurologist.
You're right, the situation isn't funny at all. And the medics that i have no choice but to rely on are not at all humorous.

I really sad to hear all of that. The one time I contacted you about some commissions you seemed like a real decent, good guy who wasn't stuck on yourself at all, and willing to help others. So I hope you can figure out the cause of it all and get on a plan that will help you.

After reading up on it a bit, it sounds like something more that working daily with a therapist to try to train your brain to visualize again would help.
I would think that looking at some pictures or even flash cards, closing your eyes and trying to remember immediately what you saw would benefit you. Or even something more rudimentary like visualizing a color or shape, or even small words.

But more importantly, try to keep healthy, hang out with friends, do things that make you happy and enjoy life, I think that'll help you out more than anything else right now.

I try to be that guy.
I've seen therapists before and never gotten anything out of them i couldn't achieve on my own. And in the end none of them could give me what i really needed.
It's not like an atrophied or injured muscle. I haven't forgotten the 'how' of what i do. Remembering simple images hasn't been the problem, rather creating new images, which is what i really need, has gone blank like a light bulb attached to a bicycle with a pedalist that's running out of steam.
I do need to be more active and social, that is absolutely true.

I kind of know what you're going through and I kind of don't.
I used to write, nothing big maybe just some short stories to submit to magazines or Kindle and stuff. Then one day I just shut down when it came to writing. I could still write emails or casual things on social media, but when I tried to write fiction I would just shut down It was like my brain was just in a fog, I couldn't think and would become mentally exhausted.
Well, to sum it up I started having severe pain in my shoulder and arm, so bad that I couldn't even sit up for more than a minute, went to the doctor and it turns out I have an aggressive form of Multiple Sclerosis. After a couple of months of medications, I'm feeling better than I have in years.

So I hope it's something like that. No I don't mean I hope you have MS, I mean that it's something that they can give you a definite diagnosis on and get you a treatment plan that will get you up and going, good as new.

I'd say to take a hiatus from art, but I'm guessing that you, like most artist here, get the majority of your income from your commissions.
If you want to try taking a commission from me I'd be more than willing to just chill and be patient and let you do with it what you could.

You're an awesome artist, the online community definitely benefits from having you around so I hope you can beat this thing and get right back to it.

Yes, that is my hope as well, that it is a physical ailment with a physical solution.

Hey man, sorry I haven't spoken in so long. I had no idea this was going on, and as an artist I cant even begin to imagine what thats like bro. I can only hope there is some solution to whats happening. And Ill be around for support or a place to vent if you need it man.

I've read your journals before. Lots of text tends to happen when you've got a problem to sort. You haven't offed yourself thus far, so I'm inclined to think you've got the determination and intelligence to sort this out. I wish you luck with that and since I haven't said so sooner, happy new year.