Happy birthday sweetie

thanks.

Well happy birthday!!!

well, thank you.

happy birthday!

thanks!

your birthday fairlyn? >_< i would have got you something if i knew! now i got to play catch up again :P hope you have a happy birthday

stop stressing out recon.
we'll get to it when we get to it.

and I was supposed to bring my pc to the guy that built it yesterday but I caught the fluf and really didn't want to go anywhere..

also, I really havenm't been checking Fa much if at all lately. I think I needed and might still need the break.
Just so you know why if I suddenly fall silent again.

the one time i forgot somebodies' birthday i felt like a complete asshole, it was very heart wrenching :P thats why i always try for birthday gifts.

oh dear, i hope you recover soon

thanks, and i know a break is neccessary sometimes, it will have done you good

aww, poor Recon. *hugs* and now you know for next year?

same here.. it's still here and it's still annoying me..

and yeah, I like staying away form Fa, a bit..
but I just.. I find I have more time to do what I want to do when I haven't got Skype running constantly.

mhm, still gonna make that story and this though. now what would i get you for your birthday...

thats one reason i dont have skype, dont want to get poked all the time. steam is different since i can game on that.

but today and yesterday, i had exams :( so being able to talk is nice to help me relax

oh, that I have no idea about..

yeah, I can see what you mean, really. I can.
and I can still game after having closed skype, thankfully.. Kinda hard to game after having exited out of skype.

aww, poor recon. did you do well? *leaves hugs and snuggles for the lati*

hmm, i have a couple of ideas. for example a spell book on liquids, one that could help if being unbirthed after sex maybe?

you just got to get used to shutting off and doing your own thing sometimes.

i dont know ;n; *hugs slightly teary*

hmm.. I don't mind unbirth after sex, as long as it's my seed.. worst case is I get turned into the same species as mommy.
how about a 'transformation for fun' or 'what not to tell a lady kitsune.' or '5 ways to get intimate with the scary lady, safely.'

oh, believe me, I know to do that..
but knowing and doing..

*nods and keeps hugging tightly.* it's ok, you did your best and that is the most important thing.

i was thinking avoid neccessary things such as the species change and maybe make sure it doesnt get anywhere it doesnt need to go. but i can think some other things...

yes, you got to get better at the doing

...i still worry, but whats done is done *hugs*

oohh, sure. But just a joke book of some kind. That was what I meant.

yup, I do..

you can't change what you did so stop worrying.. if you did bad this time you'll just have to do better next time.

i was trying to think of things that could fit in with the story

well... thats the thing it should be the next time that i just did but i have no clue.

oohh..
but you got a few ideas, i'm feeling..

ahh.. poor recon. I believe in you, and that you did the best you could.

not nearly as many waking up this morning... i will think of something im sure.

i didnt. i spent most of my time correcting stuff i had written :(

oh, I believe in you.

aww, poor recon. Maybe you need to get better at spending the time you get? Aka, use these hours reading up for exams and then use these hours for other stuff?
and i'm sure others woudl understand if you couldn't get their story done beofre christmas because you're busy reading up for your exam.

thank you fairlyn.

no its not my knowledge thats the problem, its the actual examination questions and me not doing well under the pressure.
plus i did have coursework before christmas and i still managed to get in more than my target gifts for the month

aww. So it's problems with working/thinking under stress that's the issue.
then I wish I knew what to say to help you through it.

yeah, thats my main problem, my mind just falls apart during them

that's..
I wish I coudl say 'just do this' and it'd get fixed up right easily, but..

*hugs* i know fairlyn, dont trouble yourself over it

*hugs tightly* oh, I know and I agree too.
I won't get too troubled over it.

i will manage. somehow.

just, please, if i do ramble, just let me.

and thank you for putting up with this

oh, good. *hugs tightly*

well, you cna ramble all you want, really.

you're welcome. I'm here for my friends.

*hugs* thank you fairlyn

that is good to hear. i feel sometimes i cant let my friends listen to me in the way i listen to them about their concerns and ramblings.

any word on your pc?

*keeps hugging* that's what friends are for.

well.. it goes both ways, you know.. someone has to listen you know.. I mean I can't keep rambling all the time without my friend getting to ramble either.

and none yet.. have to ask my brother on the weekend.

mhm... i just dont want to upset my friends doing it the other way...

oh well, you'll get it back eventually

yeah, I know what you mean.. i'm usually very hesitant about that kind of stuff myself.. Don't wan tot bother my friends after all.

wsell.. it's behind me still.. i'm supposed to come along when his friend get to take a look at it.. was supposed to be at the start of the month but I was sick so I declined.

i can get other's to spill but i cant do it to myself, and thats something i hate abbout myself, i just keep too quiet sometimes.

you are better at least now. rest of my family bar me is sick with a cold. even the dog seems to be sneezing. im the only one healthy

that's.. sounds like a problem allright.. and quite annoying too..
Tell me, how do you really feel.

and I am getting better, yup. Thankfully.
And here's hopinh you and your family gets better too, soonish.

like i am in 2 prisons, one the world has put me in, another i made myself but cant bare to leave too often.

thats a relief, i tend not to get sick apart from during november, hayfever and sometimes my birthday

aww, poor Recon. *start handing you different keys* one of those has to fit, right?

I always get sick during winter.. always.. It's a tradition by now, I feel..

*hugs* i wish...

fairlyn, ill or not, i will always be here to help you morally

same here, really.. I wish it was that easy..

oh, very good. I approve!

i only ask you be here to make me ramble if im stuck like i am a few replies ago.

some of us need moral boosts via fun as well as words

oh, got it. you can ramble whenever you want to, hun.

you need fun moral boosts too? I wouldn't mind one, I think.

hun x3 er thanks?

well... fun as in i want to enjoy myself with my friends, though what exactly is your fun at the moment?

I usually refer to my close friends as hun when I'm trying to cheer them up.

and well.. Installing steam and either start an RP or find a game we could both play. but not today.

ah that explains it x3 *hugs* thank you fairlyn

im kind of surprised you hadnt got it anyway for your games. or that it came with it if it was from a friend

*hugs back tightly* That and I am kinda used to thinking of you as Arlatis

well.. it's my little brother's and it's a 3.5 old mac that's somehow also running windows..

true... well its what you prefer me as

heh i'd never give my laptop to my older brother unless i had to, i dont trust him at all.

possibly through an emulator, its not uncommon for people to get windows adapting software pieces for macs or linux

yeah, and I believe the first version of you I got to know too, right?

hehe, well, thankfully my brother trust me just a bit.

I think it's bootstrap or something, but I just find mac's interface a bit too strange for my tastes.

at the time i had Tareconas picture, but i said i could give you Arlatis so... idk

you are a trustable sort i think

i dont like macs either

well.. I tend to think of my friend as the first of their sonas I meet.. Thankfully it's mostly one sona. and then a bunch of characters.

thanks. i'm glad you think so :P

same, same.

i see, well in character it was Arlatis, but i do usually go as Tareconas or Arleconas.

plus Arlatis is the one you prefer unless you find Arleconas better being herm or for her unique hybrid make up

your welcome, and i am glad you trust me too

what is Tareconas again?

I'm still hesitant about my rp partner playing a herm..
they seem to be played as a female.. until it's time to get intimate and then they put out their rod and I get fucked into the floor..
but in all seriouslyness.. I prefer females over herms..

oh, I really do trust you..
I really trust you.

the male leopard form of arlatis https://www.furaffinity.net/view/17497471/

well i have proved not to do that have i not? i would never fuck unwilling partners in rp or otherwise, especially anally
thats why i put or her species make up- how often do you see a lati hybrid running around

fair enough, i dont mind that

aww thanks fairlyn

I thought that was Tareco. Or am I mis remembering again?

and you have, really. I'm pretty sure I haven't gotten mounted by you.
and I meant it more like me and my rp partner agreed on having sex, but aren't agreeing on who gets to be stick something in the other.

*hugs tightly*

Yes that is Tareconas. Tarec, Tarek... all shortened versions of the name

Tareca is the female dream spirit leopard you and i have shared ownership of

you havent gotten mounted by me no, its always been the other way round. there was that one time you mounted me and Karina sat on my member at the same time as herm form but thats as far as it has gone in terms of mounting, all others was you inserting into me.

oh i see... well i hope it changes, even if i have never done it. I need more practice as male during intimacy anyway.

*hugs* thank you

one of those days, I'll learn it. I think/hope.

Tareca I remember, yes. and Tarina is Tarec's female form, yes?

Karina still says you'tr good at it..

yeah, same.. Here's hoping, really..

and you're welcome.

you will eventually i promise :3 though you might get confused soon, Tareconas and Dahlia are getting a picture together soon and its a joint commission with Dahlia's owner. He requested that Tarec got bewbs during it, whether he becomes a male with boobs or a female with a shaft for that picture i dont know, which do you think, a female look or a male look?

yes, you got that correct.

aww even though i couldnt do much most of the time because of the pair of you's combined weight and my inexperiance i am glad she liked it.

yep both of us. though you are better than you think.

oh, oh dear..
And I think it's all up to Tarek. I'm not interested in a shemale either way..

good.

well.. she's as inexperienced as you are, really.

:/ im not sure...

she is inexperianced? i thought you would have had your way with her a few times

well.. It's Tarek with boobs, right?
is it male to female or something in between?

hmm, nahh.. not really..
We aren't too sexually focused, me and her..
She tend to mostly pop out when we're chatting and RP'ing and jump into them when she can.

in between, Tarec with boobs. but i dont know if it should be a male look, a femboi look or like in the bottom right http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18741449/ (not gooey and still white obviously)

well i had to be sure...

but yeah she pops out quite a bit. she is very social surprisingly

well.. I'd say maybe still mostly male? Or maybe ask your friend what he/she think about it?

well, I know you wanted to be sure.

oh, she does.. especially when you're around. I think she considers you safe after all..
That and she might be a bit hesitant to try to chat me up when I always got a few of the other girls around me..

my friend said it was up to me and didnt have any preference. Mostly male. hmm...

safe? thats...well by safe as in i wont randomly have sex with her or anything? or am i overthinking?

thats true... still she's probably like me in that getting to know everyone one by one

hmm, yeah, like he's male and is startign to turn female? coiudl have it take a few weeks if you want him to be used/ok with it.

safe, yes she considers you safe.. You're easy going, she knows you'll protect her and can usually notice if she gets nervous or just need a time out..

yeah, she really appreciates having you around a lot..

well its not permanent thats for sure, its just gonna be a one off, probably for dahlia in that picture

i see, at least she has faith in me even when im not sure myself

thats...well im happy she is happy

well, sounds fun still.

she does, she trust you.. she really trusts you..

good, good.

not that you would complain if it was a permanet male to female tg x3

i know but... well i dont understand why so much

i mean how far would she trust me on things? would she go pull Ocearine's tail if i told her she was safe? i dont want to have someone that trusting, i'd end up taking advantage of them and regretting later at some point

i think she ought to trust you that much if anything, you were the one who took her in

oh, you got me there..

well.. you're like an older sister for her.. there to guide her and help her when she get lost.. and a bit of a mentor too..

and nahh, not that much, quite..
She probably look at you like you're stupid if you asked her to do that.

and she does trust me. For her it's just.. She's the new girl and I'm the alpha..

karina might mind though... and i would.

i see... i dont want to be a sister, i want to be something special for her, just like she is for me.

phew, thats a relief

i know but... well sometimes i feel she trusts me more than you and you have talked that way once or twice

yeah, I figured you'd mind for sure.

well.. what kind of special do you want to be?

yeah, I figured it'd be. no worries.

and it's just.. I have a really hared time getting a handle on her..
with Riannah or Darkie I know exactly how they'd react to different things, but with her.. It's quite a struggle..
she doesn't feel 'alive' the way the others do..

i'd be alright at first i think but it wouldnt be long before i wish to have my legs holding something pointy between them

its... its hard to say, i want to be there for her for whatever the reason and care for her, and in turn she does the same and encourage and help her with the world

alive? maybe its because you havent had her long, you are still getting to grips with her so to speak

yeah, I know.. that's why I figured you weren't into full on permanent TF

well.. you wan to help her like a significant other would do? And she says she feels you are that way for her already.
and I do want you to heklp her with the world too..

and yeah, I think that's right actually.. just give her time, right?
and alive like I cna usually mentally 'see/feel' Riannah dancing areound nked or poking in Silvara's panties. And I cna see Aurora sitting in her chair in the living room, topless and just reading a thicker book. And so on..

*Tg to be precise, tf yes on occasion, otherwise, why have i got arlatis?

yes, like a significant other but not quite full romantic. aww thats sweet...

yes~ i get you, perhaps you arent looking for her, or she needs more time

oh, got it. I would never do full TF or TG any more.
Was close to do it with Fair a few times. One time was to better try to appeal to my ex, which led to an argument..
the other time was a friend that wanted to turn me into a shadow Renamon.. Kinda stopped dead in it's tracks when he insisted, Faurlyn, my name and the last remain of my fursona from that RP needed a new name too..

yup, she sees you as someone very special, you know..
she toild me to try think of the clan as a big company with me at the top..
anbd the leader of her aparentment. (The group she feels safe in) is tarek/Arlatis/you.
Again,m the trust that is between you and her isn't something you shoudl beat yourself up over. but I think she consider you the alpha of her own smaller group.. With me as the leader of the full clan.

and yeah, I think she just needs more time.. To settle in and say hi when she's ready. And not just when I want to see her.

i can understand why, nobody should do a permanent change of another's character
you stood up for yourself on both accounts, you should not feel bad for your actions.

im not beating myself up im just... unsure? i guess. i can see why she thinks that.

she does need more time, but you could go say hello to her more anyway, it sounds like you both keep to your own worlds within the clan a lot

glad you think so.
Seriously.. Thoise are things I rarely, if ever talk to others about..

she want to see you being happy, you know..

I'll try.. It's just.. I am really shy too, and I usually see ehr working on her stone carvings and I don't want to disturb her when she's doing that..
And I have trouble sometimes gathering enough courage to talk to some of my other girls.

i can understand why, but you cant keep things locked inside forever if it helps you at ease sharing them

...i know... i guess i just dont want to be too big a part of her life she wouldnt be able to function without us two. i want her to be happy too

then thats why you should try and do so more, so you arent shy when going to talk to them.

yeah, it's just.. It is rather personal stull..

and well.. you are roomies. you want to be close and yet not too close..
also, that reminds me.. what do you do when a friend's character, that's rather integrated to your clan and the partner of one of your own characters, just disappears from FA without a trace?

*nods* will do, it's just.. some of them can be rather scary..
wish me luck?

i know personal issues are called that for a reason, but it can still help.

the character? or the person?

if character i'd ask about them, if the actual friend, look elsewhere they visit regularly see if they left for some reason or just went quiet

i wish you good luck, just try not to be frightened too much

oh, I know. It's just more personal issues getting in the way..

the person. Her owner hasn't been on for a year..
and I only know him from on here..

and will do!

i know, we all have them somewhere

:/ ask around their friends or look round their profile?

thats the spirit!

yup, poking their heads out when you least expect it..

hmm, their profile says there's been no activirty for the last year..
I think I'll.. yeah.. any idea?

mmhmm!

you cant help it :P

i dont know, link me them see if i can find out?

Happy Birthday ^^

thanks!

Happy Birthday :)

thanks!

VvV Happy Bday 2 U ! Sorry I'm a day late!

thanks, and I'm a day late too :)