Ive been going through some rough seas but now im being told that i cant talk to the people i care most about. under threat of being kicked out im being ORDERED to abandon the community that has kept me away from evils like drugs and violence and forced into a life of isolation. as i sit here writing this im shaking and crying, i feel as if i have a hole in my heart and im unable to stop it.

im going to battlestations to defend against any further attack. im also plotting to evacuate in the event things get worse.