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Feeling lost in life...
10 years ago
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Do i have any meaning in life? Whats my path? I have terrible memory issues and I fear it may get worse the older I get. I need guidance a teacher to be there for me every day if that was possible. Yet i have nobody. I want to learn a science that can help me in the future since I know my art will never support me.. I looked up a college but its so far away. And the cost is too much.. I'm stuck in an oblivion I cant get out of...
I envy those of you who have a job in the career choice that you love and have chosen. I on the other hand... Am stuck. I've tried so many things I've lost count.. I've tried learning a 2nd language but i just cant retain that information, tried history, math, science, life.. i just fail at every path in life... Why is it I try so god damn fucking hard and end up nowhere? My parents are proud of me but I am not proud of me. I feel like I am a failure. Whats a stupid art degree going to do when I don't even practice?! You've seen my art here I cant even draw a freaking straight line to save my life... how did I even get that BA in the first place?.. oh ya colleges suck the money out of you for life, give you a piece of paper, pat you on the back and send you out into the wild knowing you will amount to nothing 90% of the time while they walk to the bank with all your money... that's my life so far...
Why.... why do i have to be such a disappointment in my eyes. Why do i have to have terrible memory that even doctors and researchers know wont get better... "Ritalin" is a curse. Its destroyed my life... I could have been so much more if I wasn't put on that fucking drug as a kid... FML.
I envy those of you who have a job in the career choice that you love and have chosen. I on the other hand... Am stuck. I've tried so many things I've lost count.. I've tried learning a 2nd language but i just cant retain that information, tried history, math, science, life.. i just fail at every path in life... Why is it I try so god damn fucking hard and end up nowhere? My parents are proud of me but I am not proud of me. I feel like I am a failure. Whats a stupid art degree going to do when I don't even practice?! You've seen my art here I cant even draw a freaking straight line to save my life... how did I even get that BA in the first place?.. oh ya colleges suck the money out of you for life, give you a piece of paper, pat you on the back and send you out into the wild knowing you will amount to nothing 90% of the time while they walk to the bank with all your money... that's my life so far...
Why.... why do i have to be such a disappointment in my eyes. Why do i have to have terrible memory that even doctors and researchers know wont get better... "Ritalin" is a curse. Its destroyed my life... I could have been so much more if I wasn't put on that fucking drug as a kid... FML.
