thought i should post an update since there's been a lot of crap lately.



!) near the beginning of the year, i abandoned my old identity, due to the assholes who voluntarily spread rumors about me refusing to clear things up and repeatedly shit posting about me publicly about things that never even took place, causing people to constantly bash me even in my worst emotional states, as if dealing with what i was already dealing with because of certain people wasn't enough. after continuing to receive hate and actually letting a lot of it get to me since i've already been feeling like the things people tell me, i realized that it was more important that i work on my mental health than trying to prove how strong i was. i've lost so many friends and received a lot of downtalk from the artists who i used to always look up to for years, almost all of whom have no idea what actually happened, once even right after a transaction i had with them which i felt too shitty to accept a refund from.


i no longer post on instagram, and i no longer go by my old name. that's going to stay that way because knowing how stubborn these people are, and how outrageous they are to the point of impersonating me, it's never going to be safe. i've come to accept that.


i'll try being active under gij since at least i have a few friends under this name, but it was a pretty bad blow cutting off literally everyone just because of two complete assholes who wouldn't leave me alone after i used to plead with them not to contact me.

2) for anyone who wasn't aware, i couldn't make it to FA this year since i didn't really find a room mate in time and i had some serious financial issues, among other reasons. i hope to go next year, and in costume. i still plan on going to califur this year, though.

3) all of my tablets broke. yes that's correct, the two tablets i used for digital art, are currently dead. it's likely to stay like that for a while unless i get lucky either financially or i manage to find the receipt to one of them.

basically i sent my lenovo tablet pc in to get repairs before my warranty would run out. i sent it in october, and didn't receive it until january, long after the warranty had expired. they did not call, and upon getting it back, they had cracked my screen, removed the USB covers, and basically uninstalled all of the lenovo drivers making it unusable without an externally powered keyboard and mouse and wifi adapter.

as for my intuos pro, it just stopped working last week and won't even power on with any combination of cords and ports. i started organizing an RMA request but now my receipt is gone.

regardless of if i get these fixed, i still have a commission to complete and if i have to start over again on paper, so be it.







tl'dr it's been somewhat crappy lately and i can't do digital art comfortably anymore. also my old identity is dead. hoping to have some more positive experiences soon, since this is a pretty crappy start to 2k16.



i've still got hope for things to get exciting/better soon, but for now, i just felt like getting that out there for anyone who might be curious about what's with all the pencil doodles and why my old account is at a standstill and is being deleted slowly across the web. also just felt that i should get this stuff off my chest since i don't really have anyone to talk to about some of the more aggravating stuff.

in lighter news, i'm drawing a lot of TF stuff now, and i'm happy about that. it's honestly my favorite subject and the weirdest turn on, so count on there being a lot more of that!