So i guess my sister is now in jail again. this time, it's probably going to be for a long time, too. for something that happened years and years ago. her father, who is a repugnant excuse for a human being, decided to call the cops on her because he didn't like her presence in "his house" (not even remotely his house btw) and got her and her boyfriend taken away by the cops. of course my mongoloid grandmother in law is siding with him simply because he's her son and she doesn't want to be alone, so any sort of retaliation against her is probably gonna result in us getting kicked out and living on the street. one of my nieces is in custody of my brother and his fiance currently, who already have one kid to look after, and my other one is in custody of someone who I barely know but is apparently a drug dealer. My dad had a heart attack 2 years ago and I really don't want him to have another one over this fucking travesty of justice. i'm laying here in bed and the only thing on my mind right now is my sister and my nieces. saying that I want to die is an understatement at this point. every part of my body is shaking and i think I'm gonna puke pretty soon. i dunno what else I can do except adapt. i'm so fucking ready to call it quits right now and end everything. everything has been so shitty ever since we moved up here 5 years ago and it just keeps getting worse. sorry if this is yet another bitch post but it seems like anything good that happens in my life is superseded by a million other awful things. nowhere else to turn to so there it is. if I just stop posting for a while, that'll be the reason.

fuck everything