There are alot of things and stuff i wish i could do, there are also alot of thing and stuff that i wish i never had to deal with. Then there are the things and stuff that are part of me that i wish weren't

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I wish i didn't have.....

Fear of large crowds (anymore than 10 people near me and i start to have a panic attack and immediately start looking for the nearest exit)
No self worth (tons of verbal abuse as a kid, really hard to fix)
Social phobias (really shy when talking to new people, takes me awhile to actually somewhat open up to new people.)
Manic Depression (when i'm not depressed life is REALLY REALLY good; when i am depressed living becomes a question, not an act)
Low self-esteem (I always feel as if i'm bad at everything i do, even if i'm okay at it)

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I wish i was better at.....

Making friends (i only have 2 True friends (known them both for 10+ years now))
Being able to talk to strangers
Drawing (i can only draw stick figures and symbols)
Expressing my feelings (sometimes i wonder if i am emotionally dead)
Being able to describe myself

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I wish i could do.....

Learn about computers and coding (i am terrible at anything that isn't hands on)
((did i mention that i am bad at describing myself? ill fill this out more when i think of more things))