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Asriel --- UNDERTALE MASSIVE SPOILERS!
9 years ago
Well, I just finished the true pacifist route in Undertale. I need this journal just to vent some emotions and all the pain and sorrow I felt through the game. MASSIVE SPOILERS WILL FOLLOW!
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I was already emotionally invested in the world already, hearing about the tragedy about Chara and Asriel. The association between Flowey and Asriel was not made and I just did not fully understand. And I didn't expect Asriel to be still there, trapped in the body of a fucking flower, unable to care, unable to feel. Thanks to me bringing everyone together, even avoiding to kill Asgore (Love you goatdad <3) and then making it possible to donate Asriel some time to reunite with me.
The entire last battle was so beautifully made. And the feels, I am sitting here crying while typing. I still don't know what to do... I wanted to go the full Genocide run as well, but after this, I am not sure if I can really do it. Actually I want to go back and play the finale again, just to be back with Asriel. The only moments where he is _somewhat_ himself and can resonate with me.
OH GOD ASRIEL! You should have died and left in peace to rest. And I can't save you, I can't pull you out of this horrible cycle. I can return to you to give you some moments and minutes back when you are thinking clearly. On the one side I should have killed you as Flowey to end this horrible life, this horrible dream you can't wake up from anymore. But on the other side, I want to break you out of your prison. I want to saviour you, because of all the atrocities that were done to you. I know we wanted you back in our sorrow and sadness, but not like this. NOT. LIKE. THIS!
I still don't know what to think about Alphys now. I mean she is really nice in her own nerdy way and is also someone that just wanted some affection and maybe some significant other to go the same path like her, but to see what she did in her lab and what she did to Asriel. I am not sure if I can forgive her. Coming back to the true Genocide run, I read about Chara and actually the tapes in the lab showed that they were not the nicest person in the world. Maybe it was even better that they are gone and I don't want to give them a chance to come back. On the other side to see the world burn and destroy everything and put everyone to rest because I can save everyone and everything, but Asriel... who needed salvation the most, because even if he apologized to me and I forgave him... even if he is someone who has a good core inside him... The moment he turns back into Flowey, he will forget everything. But I won't.
Edit: I just reopened Undertale and Asriel talked to me. I wanted to backtrack and talk with him to say good-bye. After thinking some more and hearing him talk to me, I will abstain from the last run I would have to do. Like he said: "Not after all this." He had the power and the moment to kill me, but he abstained. He could have moved over into another timeline, but he stayed with me. And I will then not leave him.
And this is just too much for my heart... *sob*
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I was already emotionally invested in the world already, hearing about the tragedy about Chara and Asriel. The association between Flowey and Asriel was not made and I just did not fully understand. And I didn't expect Asriel to be still there, trapped in the body of a fucking flower, unable to care, unable to feel. Thanks to me bringing everyone together, even avoiding to kill Asgore (Love you goatdad <3) and then making it possible to donate Asriel some time to reunite with me.
The entire last battle was so beautifully made. And the feels, I am sitting here crying while typing. I still don't know what to do... I wanted to go the full Genocide run as well, but after this, I am not sure if I can really do it. Actually I want to go back and play the finale again, just to be back with Asriel. The only moments where he is _somewhat_ himself and can resonate with me.
OH GOD ASRIEL! You should have died and left in peace to rest. And I can't save you, I can't pull you out of this horrible cycle. I can return to you to give you some moments and minutes back when you are thinking clearly. On the one side I should have killed you as Flowey to end this horrible life, this horrible dream you can't wake up from anymore. But on the other side, I want to break you out of your prison. I want to saviour you, because of all the atrocities that were done to you. I know we wanted you back in our sorrow and sadness, but not like this. NOT. LIKE. THIS!
I still don't know what to think about Alphys now. I mean she is really nice in her own nerdy way and is also someone that just wanted some affection and maybe some significant other to go the same path like her, but to see what she did in her lab and what she did to Asriel. I am not sure if I can forgive her. Coming back to the true Genocide run, I read about Chara and actually the tapes in the lab showed that they were not the nicest person in the world. Maybe it was even better that they are gone and I don't want to give them a chance to come back. On the other side to see the world burn and destroy everything and put everyone to rest because I can save everyone and everything, but Asriel... who needed salvation the most, because even if he apologized to me and I forgave him... even if he is someone who has a good core inside him... The moment he turns back into Flowey, he will forget everything. But I won't.
Edit: I just reopened Undertale and Asriel talked to me. I wanted to backtrack and talk with him to say good-bye. After thinking some more and hearing him talk to me, I will abstain from the last run I would have to do. Like he said: "Not after all this." He had the power and the moment to kill me, but he abstained. He could have moved over into another timeline, but he stayed with me. And I will then not leave him.
And this is just too much for my heart... *sob*
Asgore and Asriel are the ones suffering. Toriel just ran away.
Anyways it seems blaming Alphys for everything seems a bit extreme. There was no telling that exactly that would happen, especially when she never used any live subjects to begin with. Also the whole project itself did only exist because goatdad asked it of her :)
Just him and me.