I have 2 months before I'm kicked out. I'm desperately trying to rely on one of my two local friends to get a job so I can move out with him. There's no way I can possibly survive on minimum wage, not even if I stretch it as far as it'll go. I hate having no power at all. I believe in the guy and all, but there's nothing I can do. I was raised to only trust myself and never rely on others. It's conflicting with how I really want to trust that my friend can get a job.

Even if that all works out, life isn't going to be a cakewalk either. I have a ton of expenses in the background because I'm very sickly and I also need to change my name and search for a specialist doctor to help me get a very specific thing I need.

I hate airing out my dirty laundry to total strangers, but I've already had one mental breakdown today and it's only a matter of time before my DPD stops taking effect. Everything has just gone downhill since someone I loved told me she didn't love me anymore and left me for someone she's known for less than a year. My life is a trainwreck and I'm just waiting for the sharks to come up and eat me. It doesn't help that I've missed nearly 2 months of work because sickness after sickness comes to knock me down.

I have no family on which to ask for help. I'm alone.

I'd open up a patreon or a gofundme but there's nothing I can offer anyone back.

I'm sorry if I don't post for a couple days. I'm on the brink of falling apart. I'm so fucked.