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blah stuffz UPdate into the new year, WARNING VENTING ALOT!!
9 years ago
So just venting and stuff im fine just wanted to put this someplace (mainly for nobody to see but w/e) lol XD
Last month i was fired from my job of 3 years becuz i hit the roof and didnt see myself going into a managers position becuz it would be a completly different field and i like the field i was in. Twas alot of bullshiz but after it was all done and over with i have to say i felt freaking liberated!
My previous job was something id never do again even though i was very good at it, imagine if you will waking up at like 9am then working til like 10pm. Not all the time but alot of the time it was so uncertain of what time id be home from work that it was impossible to plan a freaking thing at all. So my social life was hard to maintain, i had to like whip myself like a dog (no pun intended, actually yes enjoy the pun) in order to have a social life and work the way i was. Plus i live in a smallish town so driving all around it for said job was actually depressing i got to see alot but could never stop and enjoy it.
I guess wat i am trying to say was it was a job that i didnt hate but was slowly killing me both physically and emotionally.
So on the same day i was fired or let go or watever i actually had gotten a call from another job offering me a full time postion with benefits and the whole nine, Plus a pay raise which also never changed when i worked there.
I was liberated and lucky, so i took a week off to myself to try and reset so i could start fresh at a new job.
Now that ur caught up into my job let me tell you that the new job is easy as fuck! Like i enjoy it cuz its easy and i can do it all week and it does nothing to me plus the minute i leave im home and full of energy for other activities!
Only problem now that im facing is that my car went down, luckily i had another one so i was ok to work. My income tax is stil kinda being used to fix the car. Money and stuff usually doesnt bother me but then i get a call from my sister, turns out shes sick im not sure with what yet but some of the stuff they were considering made my heart skip out.
All of this happening around the anniversary of my mothers death mind you which unfortunitly lands on valentines day. Ive been trying to stay positive but the truth is i always have break downs about it. My mother who died of cancer two years ago, leaving me and my younger sister on this planet mostly alone due to my mothers family ties and our father who left me when i was only seven. I usually try to joke about it whenever anybody says anything to me about my mother i usually say " IM batman, i hear alfred calling" and exit on the joke. However thats just usually so i dont have another episode infront of ppl. And before you keep reading and think to yourself "O hes putting this up on here for sympathy", no im putting this up becuz telling ppl is hard and it will be nice to reference a journal entry from now on for others to see so i dont have to break down while trying to talk about it. As most of you i loved my mother and my father, they were and are my inspiration to keep moving forward no matter what obstacles get in my way. But after changing this job and taking a second to breathe looking at everything i realize that sometimes it is hard for me to get motivated, i keep making posts about trying to be more out there and do stuff. My friends always asking when im going to do like standup or a show or seomthing cuz im funny and i love making ppl smile and laugh. Hell i do the talent show every year at FAU and yes even though it moved that will not stop me from doing it =p
I guess my point about this journal is kind of an update kind of an explination into the man/cunt behind the fur and eyebrows lol, but what im saying is look at me as i am not a man who has had hardship who needs pity from others to make my life better. Cuz honestly i dont want none of that shit. But rather i want you furries hell the whole world of nut balls to look at me as the crazy white dog who shows up and puts a smile on my face.
Becuz if i leave nothing else to this world when i go wether that be soon or futures past, i want to leave all of you with the memory of a good Smile. :D
- With love.
Vondiggitydog
that odd dog you know
Last month i was fired from my job of 3 years becuz i hit the roof and didnt see myself going into a managers position becuz it would be a completly different field and i like the field i was in. Twas alot of bullshiz but after it was all done and over with i have to say i felt freaking liberated!
My previous job was something id never do again even though i was very good at it, imagine if you will waking up at like 9am then working til like 10pm. Not all the time but alot of the time it was so uncertain of what time id be home from work that it was impossible to plan a freaking thing at all. So my social life was hard to maintain, i had to like whip myself like a dog (no pun intended, actually yes enjoy the pun) in order to have a social life and work the way i was. Plus i live in a smallish town so driving all around it for said job was actually depressing i got to see alot but could never stop and enjoy it.
I guess wat i am trying to say was it was a job that i didnt hate but was slowly killing me both physically and emotionally.
So on the same day i was fired or let go or watever i actually had gotten a call from another job offering me a full time postion with benefits and the whole nine, Plus a pay raise which also never changed when i worked there.
I was liberated and lucky, so i took a week off to myself to try and reset so i could start fresh at a new job.
Now that ur caught up into my job let me tell you that the new job is easy as fuck! Like i enjoy it cuz its easy and i can do it all week and it does nothing to me plus the minute i leave im home and full of energy for other activities!
Only problem now that im facing is that my car went down, luckily i had another one so i was ok to work. My income tax is stil kinda being used to fix the car. Money and stuff usually doesnt bother me but then i get a call from my sister, turns out shes sick im not sure with what yet but some of the stuff they were considering made my heart skip out.
All of this happening around the anniversary of my mothers death mind you which unfortunitly lands on valentines day. Ive been trying to stay positive but the truth is i always have break downs about it. My mother who died of cancer two years ago, leaving me and my younger sister on this planet mostly alone due to my mothers family ties and our father who left me when i was only seven. I usually try to joke about it whenever anybody says anything to me about my mother i usually say " IM batman, i hear alfred calling" and exit on the joke. However thats just usually so i dont have another episode infront of ppl. And before you keep reading and think to yourself "O hes putting this up on here for sympathy", no im putting this up becuz telling ppl is hard and it will be nice to reference a journal entry from now on for others to see so i dont have to break down while trying to talk about it. As most of you i loved my mother and my father, they were and are my inspiration to keep moving forward no matter what obstacles get in my way. But after changing this job and taking a second to breathe looking at everything i realize that sometimes it is hard for me to get motivated, i keep making posts about trying to be more out there and do stuff. My friends always asking when im going to do like standup or a show or seomthing cuz im funny and i love making ppl smile and laugh. Hell i do the talent show every year at FAU and yes even though it moved that will not stop me from doing it =p
I guess my point about this journal is kind of an update kind of an explination into the man/cunt behind the fur and eyebrows lol, but what im saying is look at me as i am not a man who has had hardship who needs pity from others to make my life better. Cuz honestly i dont want none of that shit. But rather i want you furries hell the whole world of nut balls to look at me as the crazy white dog who shows up and puts a smile on my face.
Becuz if i leave nothing else to this world when i go wether that be soon or futures past, i want to leave all of you with the memory of a good Smile. :D
- With love.
Vondiggitydog
that odd dog you know
