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Aniversario 2016
9 years ago
It's that time again.
Phew... well, today was very much an up and down sort of day. I got two presents; money from my dad and from my grandparents, the former of which came with the condition that I never ask for money again... we'll see how long that lasts. My mother publicly dead-named me, as did my sister and cousin and former babysitter who happens to keep in touch with my family. Kind of a drag. Also, the in-person invite from the manager of GP Beijing was rescinded and in an uncouth manner after making me wait several weeks. Very disappointing.
On the plus side, I got hired to do several events in south NY and north NJ this upcoming fortnight, and GP Houston is tomorrow. I'm not thrilled about plane rides, but I'm looking forward to the event. And some internet friends and a DR colleague are coming to say hi, maybe.
Also, it's thunderstorming, so I'm happy about that.
Last year, I was feeling stuck, and I kind of am, still, but in a weird way. I have all these pieces that look like success, but I have no idea how to put them together, or to find the missing pieces or money-glue to make them stick. I mean, in the last year, I learned one and a half languages (I still wanna finish GP Paris before I say I've "learned" French for sure.), traveled to two new countries, one on an entirely new continent, and I have a third new country lined up (and an awesome one at that.) I got a car of my own (even if she's junky) and I had two really nice shots at expanding my pack... as well as continuing to grow stronger with and because of my lioness. I'm well on my way to being recertified for teaching all around the world, and soon enough, I'll even get promoted as a judge. I'm making things happen, even if the ground I'm navigating on feels like it's covered in ice with all random oil slicks everywhere.
I'm still a little shaken with how things turned out with the puppy... and I honestly miss others... I'm really not that good at letting people go. Things, I can handle, but I hate feeling like I've given up on people, so I never really let myself do it. If I could have things the way I really want them, I wouldn't have to give up on anyone.
Patience and persistence.
Phew... well, today was very much an up and down sort of day. I got two presents; money from my dad and from my grandparents, the former of which came with the condition that I never ask for money again... we'll see how long that lasts. My mother publicly dead-named me, as did my sister and cousin and former babysitter who happens to keep in touch with my family. Kind of a drag. Also, the in-person invite from the manager of GP Beijing was rescinded and in an uncouth manner after making me wait several weeks. Very disappointing.
On the plus side, I got hired to do several events in south NY and north NJ this upcoming fortnight, and GP Houston is tomorrow. I'm not thrilled about plane rides, but I'm looking forward to the event. And some internet friends and a DR colleague are coming to say hi, maybe.
Also, it's thunderstorming, so I'm happy about that.
Last year, I was feeling stuck, and I kind of am, still, but in a weird way. I have all these pieces that look like success, but I have no idea how to put them together, or to find the missing pieces or money-glue to make them stick. I mean, in the last year, I learned one and a half languages (I still wanna finish GP Paris before I say I've "learned" French for sure.), traveled to two new countries, one on an entirely new continent, and I have a third new country lined up (and an awesome one at that.) I got a car of my own (even if she's junky) and I had two really nice shots at expanding my pack... as well as continuing to grow stronger with and because of my lioness. I'm well on my way to being recertified for teaching all around the world, and soon enough, I'll even get promoted as a judge. I'm making things happen, even if the ground I'm navigating on feels like it's covered in ice with all random oil slicks everywhere.
I'm still a little shaken with how things turned out with the puppy... and I honestly miss others... I'm really not that good at letting people go. Things, I can handle, but I hate feeling like I've given up on people, so I never really let myself do it. If I could have things the way I really want them, I wouldn't have to give up on anyone.
Patience and persistence.
