So. Where to even start... from november till now, life has mostly sucked. The only good thing is that i moved in with my fiance. But.. on nov 11th, 6 days after my birthday, my mother had a brain aneurysm and she suffered in the hospital untill december 2nd when she passed away. The sad part is, to this day, i have hardly cryed.. once, maybe twice. I miss her, i would see her every week, cook with her, bake with her...but now i just feel cold about it. More pissed off that my deadbeat brother came to the funeral with his hands out and fake tears.

Other than that bit of crap, i have been laid off for the last 3 weeks so now i am struggleing to even pay my bills. To top it all off, i have a con next month.. and im staff there... so i cant realy bail out.

I dont even know why i bother with writing this... i honestly dont think anyone reads these