Sorry I haven't posted recently, I was at a friend's trying to figure my life out. I still have very little of an idea of what I'm going to do. I'm pretty drunk at the moment so I don't think responding to comments at the moment is a good idea. But I'm going to get to people tomorrow.

My life is really difficult right now and I just hope at the very least that I can get myself transferred to another store once shit starts hitting the fan. Otherwise I'm all sorts of fucked.

I have decided one thing though. Once everything is taken care of and I don't have any of my belongings here, I'm not going to talk to anyone I'm related to. Long story short, I've already cut contact with one side of the family. I don't get along with this side much anyway, so I'm going to cut them off too. I ran away once and I can do it again.

My dream is to move down east and meet a nice girl and settle down. I always kinda knew I was going to be without a family one day. I don't feel guilty for it. I've spent my life among abusers and enablers. I'm doing what I have to in order to give the future a chance to be good.

Or as I always used to say, "the 'smart' thing to do isn't always the 'right' thing to do."