You said you wanted to move down east and settle down with a nice girl. That's not going to happen if you give up now

I can relate how you're feeling right now. I've been on that spot in life when I didn't wanted to do anything. My entire life was just literally torn into hell, I lived with parents who argued 24/7 and the only I could do was stay in my room and play video games with my older brother because we didn't know how else we could've dealt with it. Afterwards, I was badly depressed and had soo much trouble in school, jobs, socializing and even sleeping.

I can see you've been in this rut where you don't know what to do with yourself and it seems darn near impossible to get out of it. Trust me, it is possible. I've been through it.
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Whatever you do... Don't find the nearest bridge.
Don't let life just chew you up. Because if you do, you're setting yourself up for failure and that's only going to make everything worse, I can 100% promise you, that you can push right through this depression, stand up tall, and find some sort of thing or way to talk to a counselor and explain how you feel. It helps a lot.
You hang in there. Think positive^^