First thing I would like to say is sorry for disappearing/not responding for the past 6 or so months. I know I have been responding late, and have recently been completely unresponsive in most cases since December. I hope you can forgive me for that, and that y'all still want me back. Literally just noticed that I already have a journal titled Trying to come back from 5 months ago.

A number of personality changes, along with depression and other changes, have caused me to withdraw from a lot of social areas; this also causes increased depression so I've been trying to break out of that downward spiral and post this for over a month now. I may not be active for a while now, but I'm posting this mostly as an "It's okay to come back now" to my subconcious.

Also, practically my entire future has changed due to a change in skillset. I found out my skills changed during Calculus 2 and Calc Based Physics. As you can guess, it's not easy to pass those when all of your math skills are suddenly gone and it caused those classes to be my first and second failed classes ever. I am also turning away form sciences, and turning towards art. I'm going into Graphic Design so that I can make a living until my other arts is good enough. Also, my new life's dream is to have my own studio at the Pendleton Art Center. I hope to be doing Jewelry making, chainmail/scalemail, watercolor (which I just got new paint brushes for & white gouache from Plaza yesterday), drawing (which I just got a custom set of Prismacolor pencils, also from plaza), digital art, details with ink(still need an actual ink pin, instead of the one I made from an ink pin tip & a broken mechanical pencil), wood carving, gem carving, blacksmithing, mandalas, and zentangles (when I'm bored, having an art block, or having free time and I want to make zentangles) at the Pendleton Art Center. I'm also hoping to be able to travel and go on mission trips, to gem shows &b art shows, and to go to conventions(mostly furry) and festivals(mostly renaissance and friendship). I'm so confident in this because this is a learned skill, mathematics and science were a natural talent. While the natural talent may go, learned skills don't (just like I remember most of the math skills I learned, which are about as useful as knowing only how to build the very top of the pyramid and not knowing how to build the base).

Finally, all the art I have on here of my fursona/persona/etc. is outdated, and I'll need to make new art for it. Thanks for listening, and sorry for dissapearing.