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announcement regarding commissions
9 years ago
So, I've been meaning to write this for a while...
I've done a lot of consideration regarding this for quite a few weeks.
I've discussed it with a few close friends and really searched my feelings about this.
Art has become really troublesome for me. It's become a burden, and no longer an enjoyment for me. I struggle to produce anything for myself that lives up to the standards and quality I strive for... and I hate that.
Giving giftart and taking requests from people is the only joy lately I've found in my art. People are always pleased to receive gifts and have requests filled... and it fills me with happiness to see their reactions. I can always do requests and giftart because it's on my own time, my own subject matter usually as I pick and choose, and it's relaxing and ultimately rewarding.
Commissions on the other hand have always been a struggle for me. The deadlines imposed are always a huge center of burning anxiety, and yet I still strive for the impossible with them. A lot of people in the past have been displeased with my work and it always pains me and discourages me when I have to alter things so much and I never feel like I am getting it right or making the person happy... Added on the fact that they've paid for my work, and it leaves me feeling helpless and guilty.
So...I've decided that I am no longer accepting commissions...for basically as long as I feel is necessary. Which, in writing this, feels like a very, very long time....
If you had plans to commission me or were waiting for me to re-open, I apologize, but at this moment it just is not feasible for me to continue this way with my work.
u_u I thank sincerely everyone who has supported me, and continues to do so. I hope I have not disappointed too much... because I want to get back to a place where I can enjoy my art.. and for me to do that, this really is the best option moving forward, I feel.
I've done a lot of consideration regarding this for quite a few weeks.
I've discussed it with a few close friends and really searched my feelings about this.
Art has become really troublesome for me. It's become a burden, and no longer an enjoyment for me. I struggle to produce anything for myself that lives up to the standards and quality I strive for... and I hate that.
Giving giftart and taking requests from people is the only joy lately I've found in my art. People are always pleased to receive gifts and have requests filled... and it fills me with happiness to see their reactions. I can always do requests and giftart because it's on my own time, my own subject matter usually as I pick and choose, and it's relaxing and ultimately rewarding.
Commissions on the other hand have always been a struggle for me. The deadlines imposed are always a huge center of burning anxiety, and yet I still strive for the impossible with them. A lot of people in the past have been displeased with my work and it always pains me and discourages me when I have to alter things so much and I never feel like I am getting it right or making the person happy... Added on the fact that they've paid for my work, and it leaves me feeling helpless and guilty.
So...I've decided that I am no longer accepting commissions...for basically as long as I feel is necessary. Which, in writing this, feels like a very, very long time....
If you had plans to commission me or were waiting for me to re-open, I apologize, but at this moment it just is not feasible for me to continue this way with my work.
u_u I thank sincerely everyone who has supported me, and continues to do so. I hope I have not disappointed too much... because I want to get back to a place where I can enjoy my art.. and for me to do that, this really is the best option moving forward, I feel.
On one hand, I always love that artists (including myself!) can make some money doing something that they enjoy doing - or a talent that they actually have put time into like that. But I know too that it adds a LOT of strange stress. Most people that've done it enough has had people rip off their time or payment, or send them through loops of redoing over and over and still never seeming pleased with it, or been talked down to as though they aren't providing a unique thing with all their own style, experience, tools, and abilities, just because someone has no understanding of what might go into it or what they were getting into when they asked for something...
...and all of that "fun" stuff can definitely make it easier to just pass on commission sorts of things, too.
Ramble ramble. So yes! Good for you for knowing what you want, at least! Hopefully it brings you more satisfaction with art and creating, and leads to happier and less-stressed days!
So don't worry about art for commission, just take care of yourself, rekindle your love of your own art, and remember, anyone who wants a commission from you?
Is likely very willing to wait, myself included. Everything I've ever gotten from you, I have absolutely adored, and I hope to get more art from you in the future.
How far off that is? I don't know, and that's okay. ^w^ I'm just happy to hear that you're alive and taking care of yourself.
=D