I've been keeping some things secret and need to say some things. I can't do the 1k watcher raffle contest prizes anymore at least not for a long for see able time. I just can't afford them. The only reason I've been able to buy anything recently is because I've been selling my vast yugioh card and video game collection but thats gonna run out soon. I have no job and I've told some people I do but I don't I just wanted people to stop worry about me and hopefully I figure it out myself. I haven't had a job since the end of October and not having a job hasn't been a issue much either until the bad news I recieved late yesterday from my college advisor and also suddenly having to repair my car. But more so what I was told about college I already have my associates but I transferred to a different college to finish up a CSG program. Despite my credits transferring I still have 3 more semesters to go despite the one I'm in right now. The issue with that is there is a limitation on financial aid and I doubt it will cover 3 more semesters after this one. So basically if I want to finish up program and fulfill my career path dream I'm gonna have to pay it with my own money *sigh* my college path hasn't been easy as it took me a while to figure out what I wanted to do and I know now what I want to do its just now I maybe don't have the time sadly and because of that I somewhat feel like getting the associates was a waste and I should have just went to the college I'm at right now instead so I had more time. The thing is too I'm really good at what I'm trying to become I have all A's and I'm not even giving it my 100% yet but now I'm just super depressed and feel that I may not even be able to finish what I've started. I don't want to make you guys feel bad or anything like that as I don't regret donating or spending money on you guys to help you out as I love you guys and your my friends. But I just can't do this anymore. I'm so sorry I can't finish some of things I've started here like the raffle and such and I regret and despise myself greatly for not being able to finish up and keep my promise about the raffle but I just can't do this anymore. So in conclusion I'm going on a hiatus for a indefinite amount of time. I don't know when I'll be back and I don't know if maybe I'll really truly be back ever either especially as being as active as I once was. I'm super depressed and just have alot of things on my mind and alot of burdens and such and I just can't I just can't. So I guess this maybe goodbye everyone will see I guess.