It's okay, you have reason to vent. Also take your time with my commission, I'd rather you finish it only when you're in a better position to. I've been experiencing art block and doubts about my future too, so I understand where you're at.

thank you for being so gentle and understanding, peng

You're welcome~ Hopefully both of us can find our solution sooner or later.

This is a completely appropriate way to feel after high school and it's okay to not really know what to do next. In my case I spent 2 years in junior college as an art student then managed to transfer out to a state university in Los Angeles for animation. I actually graduate myself in two months here and I'm starting to get the same panic again.

What I'm trying to say (sorry if I rambled there) is that you take your time, take a breath and relax yourself, take it one piece at a time, maybe junior college would be a good choice to start with, I know a LOT of people who managed to figure themselves out there before transferring out.

No matter, the best of luck to you, you've got your whole life ahead of you now, the fun part is coming up!

aw dude, thanks for the kind words. I appreciate it

(also thank you for watching omg??? I love rounding up more penguins, haha <3)

No problem, I'm always glad to help people out, life is tough and they don't really teach you about too much of it in school.

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hey life is hard but as cliche as it sounds but life is what you make of it since I gotten my sciatica I been fighting the government for money lol and I been in your shoes before I felt like I'm a burden on my family hell my bbrother and his wife told my folks if they was to die I'm on my own cause they don't need me leeching off of them but you got this Emily you'll get stuff figured out this is just a rough patch

Hopefully things take a turn in your favor. It's a bumpy road but you'll overcome it. <3

I'm in a kind of similar boat. I did really well in high school and college, always a good student with good grades. I even moved to Ireland right after college, working for seven months making great money and traveling for the other five. I haven't kept a job for a whole year since then, and my health keeps slipping to where mostly I just struggle to get through each week. My father has given me one massive loan and a whole bunch of small monetary gifts to keep me afloat, and I go on and off public benefits like food stamps. Sometimes I live by myself for a while and do well but I always end up moving back in with a parent eventually. Every time I try to look into my future I just see grinding poverty and dependency on my parents and/or the government for help.

It's tough. I'm still really hopeful and I've been trying really hard to get my health stuff together and get into a good place in live. It's totally worth trying, toughing it out on the chance things will get better. But yeah it can be really hard sometimes, I feel you on that one.

Yeah, I think that's how it kind of goes. After high school, it's like "What's next?" You only have a vague idea of what you want to do, and even then, 'What next?' Think of it this way: You have your whole life to figure out what you want to do. It's never too late to do/be a [whatever]. My piano teacher retired from her job (a music teacher, actually) recently, and she told me she has no idea what to do now since she has so much free time. Even people that have supposedly "Lived life" are still saying "What next?"

You know what education doesn't prepare you for?
Real life.
And damn, it sucks. But I'm sure you'll find yourself eventually.