I really want to get a tablet and once I do and know my way around it, I would love to do commissions. I'll be using the money to start getting myself ready for my medications, doctors and eventually, life after my surgery. Although, lucky for me, my province covers my specific surgery if I'm deemed worthy of it. After being put on a wait list where they only do 20 people a year...

I feel as if I should at least explain my situation when it comes to that. I'm not going to say what the main medication and surgery I need are, because it's a very private issue and I'm not comfortable with coming out about that just yet. But the situation I'm in is that if I get health insurance, one medication (I need it for the surgery) will take up the entire amount, and then some, of what the insurance will give me a year towards medication. That's not covering my inhalers or glasses. I'll be getting 1k a year towards medicine and the one I desperately need will cost me, if I'm lucky, 1.2k a year.

As for my surgery, it's a life changing one. Luckily it's one that's been done for almost 100 years. So they know what they're doing and the chances of something going wrong, or me dying on them is low. It's going to need a lot of healing, upwards of a year or so, and the post surgery life is going to be extremely painful and gory during that time. This isn't something I've thought lightly about. Basically, without explaining too much of the personal stuff, they'll be changing my biology a lot.

And to anyone who does figure out what my surgery is, I ask that you please don't share that information anywhere that isn't private. It's a very scary surgery and life afterwards is going to be very hard for me. I ask that if you do know and do want to talk to me about it, or give me emotional support, that you please do it through notes. Hell, I'd appreciate the emotional support, I don't get it from my family and a huge chunk of my friends.

I'll explain more about the commissions once I feel like I'm ready to take them on. Unfortunately, because my life is busy and will get busier, I'll only be able to do one or two at a time when everything is sorted.

(Side note, I want to commission someone with the next paycheck, not this one on Saturday, but the one in two weeks. I know I don't have much money and I won't have much to give, but I want to treat myself for one last time before life really gets tough. I've got a couple people in mind and I really apologize to the people on my list who I don't contact right now).

-Snow