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Lost another friend
9 years ago
its the second time in less than a month. one more and ill beat my record. i havent lost friends in a while until now, and now not only were they friends, but they were also my best friends. my other very important friendship is also looking really dire right now... if i lose that i. i dont know. its the most important one i have right now and its not even in real life. i just dont understand, i always try to do my absolute best for everyone, and yet. they never seem to remember all the good things i did for them.
what happened was basically. well. there is this person that i hate and made my life hell and really is just annoying and stresses me out and she wont stop texting me or talking to me! she keeps stalking me and finding all of my friends somehow! shes friended a lot of them, including the friend i lost today. she got them on her side. and this best friend i have is also really uncomfortable around her. she knows how she can be and. this is getting confusing. ill give them nicknames. Red is the friend i love and the situation is dire. blue is the friend i just lost, and green is the one that keeps stalking me. so. Red decided shed do a stream of her drawings, and she invited blue and i. it was going nice, Red was actually drawing blue, and blue at some point asks if she can invite green in. Red replies '...sure' and i only answered '...' to this, blue went 'i get it jfc' Red replied something along the lines that she wasnt going to ignore her, and blue started being really sour and said things like 'unlike somebody we know' and really talking me down so i stood up and blue kept arguing with me, then threatened leaving, until Red flipped and ended the stream.
i got really angry because all of us have emotional problems, and Red can be insecure and im very protective of her. on one side im asking blue what that was all about. she KNEW we didnt like green AT ALL. and on the other side Red is talking me down saying we cant even try to get along for her (Red).
Blue, Red and i were just like family. one day green came around even AFTER i told both green and Red what shed done to me. both started talking to her and actually friended her. i felt really fucking betrayed! but they still did anyway! Red eventually stopped after another bad event i had with green, but blue kept talking to her more and more! even more than she did to me.
this was the last thing blue said to me:
[21:42:53] blue: The only person I care for as much as I shouldn't is Red.
[21:43:04] blue: You've lost all respect with all the shit you've pulled
[21:43:08] Orion: ...
[21:43:08] blue: Goodbye Orion
[21:43:13] blue: For real this time.
im not letting my self hate tell me its my fault this time. but i really feel dead inside. im sorry for making such a long post, i really needed to get this out somewhere because im not being able to handle it. Red isnt talking to me either. 'fuck this i need a break'
...i cant help but feel 100% guilty but im trying not to...
what happened was basically. well. there is this person that i hate and made my life hell and really is just annoying and stresses me out and she wont stop texting me or talking to me! she keeps stalking me and finding all of my friends somehow! shes friended a lot of them, including the friend i lost today. she got them on her side. and this best friend i have is also really uncomfortable around her. she knows how she can be and. this is getting confusing. ill give them nicknames. Red is the friend i love and the situation is dire. blue is the friend i just lost, and green is the one that keeps stalking me. so. Red decided shed do a stream of her drawings, and she invited blue and i. it was going nice, Red was actually drawing blue, and blue at some point asks if she can invite green in. Red replies '...sure' and i only answered '...' to this, blue went 'i get it jfc' Red replied something along the lines that she wasnt going to ignore her, and blue started being really sour and said things like 'unlike somebody we know' and really talking me down so i stood up and blue kept arguing with me, then threatened leaving, until Red flipped and ended the stream.
i got really angry because all of us have emotional problems, and Red can be insecure and im very protective of her. on one side im asking blue what that was all about. she KNEW we didnt like green AT ALL. and on the other side Red is talking me down saying we cant even try to get along for her (Red).
Blue, Red and i were just like family. one day green came around even AFTER i told both green and Red what shed done to me. both started talking to her and actually friended her. i felt really fucking betrayed! but they still did anyway! Red eventually stopped after another bad event i had with green, but blue kept talking to her more and more! even more than she did to me.
this was the last thing blue said to me:
[21:42:53] blue: The only person I care for as much as I shouldn't is Red.
[21:43:04] blue: You've lost all respect with all the shit you've pulled
[21:43:08] Orion: ...
[21:43:08] blue: Goodbye Orion
[21:43:13] blue: For real this time.
im not letting my self hate tell me its my fault this time. but i really feel dead inside. im sorry for making such a long post, i really needed to get this out somewhere because im not being able to handle it. Red isnt talking to me either. 'fuck this i need a break'
...i cant help but feel 100% guilty but im trying not to...
