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A new beginning
9 years ago
I've been a silent follower for what seems like an eternity, and yet a few months ago I had the courage to reach out and really join the fandom. It's only tonight that I realize it's been a dream for even longer than I remember.
It's been a couple of rough weeks and to be honest I felt depressed in the last days. I questioned myself all this time, wondering if I really fit in, both in real life and on FA. My own mind denied the importance of the fandom in my life. To be short: I was conflicted at being a furry. It might be why writing the story on my latest piece made me really SEE what I'd been missing out.
As I wrote, something came to mind. Every character I wrote in the previous stories had only a little in common with me but they all differed somehow. I thought as they did, it was like acting in a movie or a theatre. But this time around... it was different: I forgot to play a role.
After a few paragraphs, I saw myself in ''Michael'' and changed it to ''Maxime'', my real name. I wanted to experiment on it but it turned out to wake something in me. I stopped trying to fill out a role and instead put myself out there, in that situation. At first it felt silly, strange but I grew to like that new way of doing things.
So, not only did I put myself out there in this piece but I now feel like a real furry. After all these years watching and trying to find a place to fit in, I finally found it. I'm proud to be part of the community now and I'll be here for a long time!
I'm a furry and I love it.
It's been a couple of rough weeks and to be honest I felt depressed in the last days. I questioned myself all this time, wondering if I really fit in, both in real life and on FA. My own mind denied the importance of the fandom in my life. To be short: I was conflicted at being a furry. It might be why writing the story on my latest piece made me really SEE what I'd been missing out.
As I wrote, something came to mind. Every character I wrote in the previous stories had only a little in common with me but they all differed somehow. I thought as they did, it was like acting in a movie or a theatre. But this time around... it was different: I forgot to play a role.
After a few paragraphs, I saw myself in ''Michael'' and changed it to ''Maxime'', my real name. I wanted to experiment on it but it turned out to wake something in me. I stopped trying to fill out a role and instead put myself out there, in that situation. At first it felt silly, strange but I grew to like that new way of doing things.
So, not only did I put myself out there in this piece but I now feel like a real furry. After all these years watching and trying to find a place to fit in, I finally found it. I'm proud to be part of the community now and I'll be here for a long time!
I'm a furry and I love it.
I found my place on FA, that's for sure. As for people to share with... that's a more difficult thing really.
I guess you felt that you are just another crazy person who wishes they could be animal... or may be one at heart
As for the animal in my heart, it's clearly a wolf. As far as I can remember it's always been that way, I was just confused when I came to FA. And years later, here we are talking It's nice to meet you too!
As for the shy part, I think I'll be fine with similar minded people, love meeting new people. Not having to hide that part of me would be a real relief!
Not putting a lot of expectations in them but it'd be a first step.
I too was a silent watcher of the furry fandom for a long time.
I learned about it back in 1999 via Goldenwolf's artwork, which eventually lead me to FA and the fandom.
I wasn't sure if I really was a furry or if I just really liked the fandom in general (my love of anthro animals coming from animated features and comic books), but as time passed, I realized that there were things that I really enjoyed and certain animal traits that I strongly associated with.
I was scared too.
So many media outlets look a the fandom as "weird" and "perverted," not bothering to actually dig below the surface to really show what it was about. The love, friendships and community that come from being apart of this.
I didn't want to be portrayed in that negative light.
I really had no one to talk to about the fandom until much later, which made things more difficult.
Originally, I thought I was more of a wolf, but as I learned more about other animals, red foxes started to not only peak my interest, but I started to see more aspects of the red fox within myself more than any other animal.
It wasn't until last year when I became friends with two guys that identified as furries that I finally had the courage to look in the mirror and say that I was an anthro red fox with the ability to morph and shapeshift.
I felt so much better emotionally after that.
And after talking with my new friends, I felt so much better. I was more comfortable with who I was and most importantly, I was so much happier with who I was.
I'm not ashamed to be a furry. It's a part of who I am.
You're not alone in feeling this way.
And never feel sad or ashamed to be a furry either.
If it makes you happy, then embrace it.
You can always talk to me if you ever start having doubts.