Losing my grandmother after it being a year since my pawpaw died... car is broke down... water pipe is busted under the house... a toilet is cracked... my job has switched my position and I now have less pay with no warning and very few hours so I'm having to apply for a new job... my baby is cutting teeth and I barely see him from me working so much.... I can't pay but barely half of my bills... because I put my sons needs first. .. I just don't know how much more I can take... my health life and marriage is on edge and it's killing me... hardly anyone even reads my journals so i m not looking for sympathy just... to vent.... and maybe help myself but it's not working because as I'm writing this I'm breaking down....