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True Colors
9 years ago
I am a bipolar, manic depressive that is highly irrational and spontaneous. I am unable to control my emotions though I have convinced myself I can. I am in a constant state of unhappiness and put on a mask of happiness for those near me to make them feel better in hopes that their happiness will make me happy for a fleeting moment. I have high ambitions and no motivations to see them through. I begin projects but never finish them. I have talents in many different fields that are left un-utilized. I sit alone surrounded by friends most days and wish for things to be better, for things to change although I wont move from my chair to make them change. I have love for my mate like no one else, but I feel like a burden.
I am Conneich. These are my true colors. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FcOxqNvrvwQ
I am Conneich. These are my true colors. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FcOxqNvrvwQ
I've got some pretty awful issues of my own, so you're not alone. I'm a lazy, selfish mutt that, for whatever reason, can't push himself to actually get off his ass and do something with his life. Failing health can't even give me the initiative to try.. and without a doctor to get assistance if shit really does hit the fan, I'm making all the wrong decisions for the sake of indulging on the things that make me (pseudo) happy.
No matter what happens, I'm still your friend... And although it might seem like sometimes I'm just not there when you want, or even need me to be... you are still very, very important to me, even though I don't seem to show it v.v -smooch- We'll get through this, no matter how much it hurts. Just keep pushing on.. keep your mind on the better things you -can- do, and then the worst that can happen is failure. You'll always be a good'n in my book, no matter what anyone else says. <3