I empathize. The situation on F.A. is absolutely horrifying. I didn't realize a journal could be deleted. My journals are my sanctuary. A place where I thought I could speak with freeness. I also find It horrifying that some people use F.A. as a platform to promote their celebrity and hawk their wares yet they want to sanitize our pages for saying something they don't like. This is not communist China. They have no right. I have an adult submission below that details one of my experiences.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19145208/

I have gotten over this since I made the video. I just hope that the user eventually accepts my apology.