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9 years ago
Hello everyone! I think it's about time to get my previous journal off from my page and start with a brand new one!
First off, this will be my second out of state furry convention but I'll be attending to BLFC with
! Be seeing a few good friend as well and it'll be super exciting! At least much more exciting then Oklacon cause I didn't have a great time there but if I didn't go I wouldn't have met some pretty awesome artist friends. <3
I'm pretty sure I'll be suiting at BLFC so keep a look out for me and if you plan on going please give me a shout out and maybe we can hang or something though I have social anxieties and have issues being around random strangers so please bare with my shy personality. ;w;
Also I'm really looking forward to moving in with my best buds and the dragons (listed above) into an actual house hopefully within the next few months! It'll be great and I'm also gonna look for a much better job because fast food can only get me so far and most of my stress unfortunately is coming from my job...plus I need higher pay in order to make my life easier especially with my student loans creeping up on me soon. *shudders*
I am pretty happy with my life right now especially with continuing hormone treatments and looking forward to getting my surgeries in the future but I have been getting sad often but it's because I'm lacking of having an amazing mate in my life and it sucks because one, I have trust issues and need to emotionally connect with someone so well that I would love to go out with them and two, it's incredibly difficult for a transgender to find the right person who doesn't have a fetish with the genders. I don't get jealous when I see friends dating in fact I think it's really adorable! But I definitely get very lonely and have the high urge to get clingy and cuddly. I absolutely have to have a one on one relationship and not have multiple partners because it's a huge turn off for me and it makes me extremely uncomfortable. I'm sure I'll find the right person for me and mostly looking for the type of a "gentle giant" as an ideal partner because of my personality.
Anywho other then that, I've been slowly doing art on the side not much unfortunately but I'm trying. Kinda difficult to keep up with when you have an actual job that you work so many hours just to keep yourself alive. xD I cannot wait to get a higher paying job where I can have more free time to do more art and one day make a living off of it.
That's about it actually! Hope to see some awesome peeps at the con next month! <3
- Jake
First off, this will be my second out of state furry convention but I'll be attending to BLFC with
! Be seeing a few good friend as well and it'll be super exciting! At least much more exciting then Oklacon cause I didn't have a great time there but if I didn't go I wouldn't have met some pretty awesome artist friends. <3 I'm pretty sure I'll be suiting at BLFC so keep a look out for me and if you plan on going please give me a shout out and maybe we can hang or something though I have social anxieties and have issues being around random strangers so please bare with my shy personality. ;w;
Also I'm really looking forward to moving in with my best buds and the dragons (listed above) into an actual house hopefully within the next few months! It'll be great and I'm also gonna look for a much better job because fast food can only get me so far and most of my stress unfortunately is coming from my job...plus I need higher pay in order to make my life easier especially with my student loans creeping up on me soon. *shudders*
I am pretty happy with my life right now especially with continuing hormone treatments and looking forward to getting my surgeries in the future but I have been getting sad often but it's because I'm lacking of having an amazing mate in my life and it sucks because one, I have trust issues and need to emotionally connect with someone so well that I would love to go out with them and two, it's incredibly difficult for a transgender to find the right person who doesn't have a fetish with the genders. I don't get jealous when I see friends dating in fact I think it's really adorable! But I definitely get very lonely and have the high urge to get clingy and cuddly. I absolutely have to have a one on one relationship and not have multiple partners because it's a huge turn off for me and it makes me extremely uncomfortable. I'm sure I'll find the right person for me and mostly looking for the type of a "gentle giant" as an ideal partner because of my personality.
Anywho other then that, I've been slowly doing art on the side not much unfortunately but I'm trying. Kinda difficult to keep up with when you have an actual job that you work so many hours just to keep yourself alive. xD I cannot wait to get a higher paying job where I can have more free time to do more art and one day make a living off of it.
That's about it actually! Hope to see some awesome peeps at the con next month! <3
- Jake
this is another year i didn't start planning for it early enough to reserve a room in the onsite hotel,
but as i live as close as i do, not close enough to walk easily, but close enough for it to be possible,
and anyway, the local city buses will get me there and back just fine, most hours of the day,
though not as often as i'd like on sunday. i don't have enough furry parts that are presentable,
to come as anything other then the derpy old past retirement age looking human that i am.
i might or might not wear my crappy old green tail, or even think about buying a new one.
i doubt very much i'll ever finish the crappy looking head i started making but never finished many years ago.
my own art is something i've (almost) never tried to sell. its more about world building then characters,
and i really doubt i could make anyone happy with commissions. my mind just doesn't work any other way,
then complete artistic freedom, and there's plenty of room for debate in calling what i do art.
but still its what i like to do, and a large part of where my interest in furry comes from.