but you have created so many beautiful works of art, isnt that something?

Everybody always forget that here is two of us and mostly commucation and all this journal entries are written by the owner of this account who mostly draws freebies and craft stuff.

Now see, I say: No use sitting around waiting for something to happen.

Im the man of action. Its not about doing nothing. Its about going wrong way

You've made tons of great art and inspired a lot of people, me included; you definitely haven't wasted anything!

But its not mine. All the glory to my husband.

A lot of people don't know what they want to do really until they are older in life. My mom was 35 before she had ever touched carving tools and now she's a decently well respected sculptor. Julia Child was 30 before she ever cooked a French meal in her life and now her name cannot be separated from a discussion about French cooking in America. Maybe you're just a late bloomer, hun.

As for learning to be a good friend, mostly it's just learning to try to be available and understanding. No one is perfect and a good friendship takes some compromise from both individuals, especially when you're becoming friends as adults. When you're a kid it is easy to make friends, you have no real responsibilities or requirements outside of go to school and don't kill your goldfish (or whatever other pet you may or may not have had.) Friendships really only can be maintained when you and another person decide you're willing to occasionally put your own current projects on hold in favor of hanging out with them and being there when they need it. Friends are easy to find, good friends that will be there for you... not so much.

As for your purpose, that's the great age old question, isn't it? Most people go through their whole life without ever really finding one. If you have a particular passion, just pursue it without worrying about the impact you're leaving. If you haven't found a passion yet, it's probably a good idea for you to keep looking for it.

I'm just a stranger, but I'm a nosy one that can't help but give advice. Sorry if any of this is unwelcome. ;^_^

I fully agree with you there. Adult friendships, as I learned are incredibly hard to maintain compared to being a kid. But in a way I find they can be so much more fulfilling. The second hardest part is making those friends as we're all busy at work and with our home lives that meeting these people is hard! It takes effort, reaching out whether it's on a forum or site like this, or going to some form of activity of a hobby of yours. Some hobbies are harder than others to find local friends, granted. It's a lot of work and I'm said I didn't realize that sooner!

Well it helps a bit knowing what you`re not alone with your slowleness XD but I already tried so many things even cant image what else to touch (

Agreed. Friendship for me - is kind of rather close relationships more like brother or sisterhood. An the feeling that you`re already too old for tis shit makes the process of becoming good friend only more difficult <_<`
I have passion to many things but it has short life. Something about from month to one year.
No reasons to be sorry. Thank you <3

I'll be more than happy to be your friend, it's part of the reason why I joined furaffinity and deviantart in the first place. Hell you're a better artist than I am and it's from looking at everyone's art on here that pushes me to get better so you cant say you've done nothing good with your life, you and everyone else I've added to my watch list has inspired me to get better.

Thats great from you. But Im not that artist who drew most part of this gallery ya know? Im the owner of this page, and the one who talks to everyone here. And the one who helps and makes freebies. Thats all. I even cant draw normally.

so what if can't draw normally what talent you do have is really good. I never get asked to draw anything for anyone, which is ok I guess, but sometimes I do offer to my friends and i'm too nervous to ask someone to do anything for me so in a way you're one up on me lol.

I think a big issue is there is so much pressure on young people to decide what to do with their lives and a push to achieve their lifetime goals at an early age. At 22, Walk Disney was bankrupt.

It took me until my mid 20's to figure out what I want to do.

Well you`re right! But for mow its not about pressure. I mean, its not outside its inside. That I just wasting my lifetime for nothin <_<`

You make great art the makes people happy. Thats certainly worthwhile.

As I said already - its my husbands art, not mine.

Sorry, thought it was a shared account.

But you're still alive. And that is something to be happy for.
Even if only to learn those skills you think you are lacking.
You are alive to have the opportunity to learn.

I get you with your hate for birthdays. I hate mine too.

But hey, you got 364 days a year that aren't your birthday. Look at those :P

For "teaching how to BE a good friend", well there is no way you can be taught that. A friendship always needs two people, and when one of them wants to be a friend and the other not.... it is not gonna work out. It is a mutual thing. When you and your (potential) friend are both agreeing to spend time together instead of doing their own stuff/projects, you are already being a good friend.
And let me telly you, you can't be the "good friend" with everybody...

For the "I have no education or mad skills": There are thousands of people that managed to get famous/fulfill their lives/make mad money without any education or skills either. But it is an ambitious goal to want to have mad skills and that is good, this means you want to develop yourself further. Just remember that skills that you acquired without sweat/blood are useless and unearned.

Lol full of logic!)
I just wanna be friend at least for one person. But I have none (
They are just, as you said, ambitious and very lucky. I have no luck but maybe cant grow some ambitions XD

you are married... isn't that counting as friend-4-life?

and for finding friends: have you tried to join a local club/organization? That is a good way to find people and talk to them.

It counts but sometimes you need to have rest from your partner <_< Especially if you`re 24/7 in one room
Yep. Many of them!

and by your reply I guess you haven't had luck at any of the clubs/organizations =(

where those groups furry groups or something else? It could be that you try to stay always in the same community and not try to broaden your horizon.
It can be sometimes (for me most of the times) intimidating to start a conversation with someone. But I can tell you from experience that most of the people are actually a friendly bunch. Yeah it can happen that they have a bad day and are rude.. but most of the time they are nice ;)

Unfortunately ( They even dont wanna take me as a volanture D:
Well maybe the problem is - I have high standarts for some points <_< No cigarrets and alcohol, asexual, no meat, I dont like too noisy and ethernel depressed people, I dont understand "life standarts" of modern society and etc...long list <_<` But in fact I dont wanna lower this standarts because they are necessery for me to stay a bit more healthy metnally and phisically too. I can deal with in other peoples life but it makes communication only harder (
Im not afraid of people. Its easy to start talking with someone but mostly people tell me that im TOO friendly. They hardly understand when someone can be just kind to other without reasons. Surely Im not an angel and can be rude XD

high standards? maybe you think too much about that. ;)

I get it that smokers are annoying and stinky (I don't like them either), but as long they don't smoke while I am around and they don't stink like a chimney I don't care.

Alcohol, while I am myself a non-drinker, I am pretty okey with that actually, as long I don't have to hear his stories how "wasted" he was the last weekend.

Asexual? <_< I am not sure what kind of friend you are looking for, but if you want a platonic (non-sexual) friendship I can't see that as an limiting faktor... since it is obvious that you already have a fixed partner.

For the meat, well I can't see how that is an important trait in a human, that they choose to be a vegetarian or not. It can be annoying when they always want to hang out at steak-houses or so, but so far I have experienced that non-vegitarians mostly let the vegitarians choose the restaurant, because they are the "limiting factor" ;)

Depressed people are a strange topic. It is true that nobody wants to be near somebody who radiates negativity nonstop... But I think even the most depressed person can laugh when you bring a smile on their faces ^^

For being TOO friendly... I think that is a good trait. Being kind to people without reason is something I believe in and what I practice. (<_< and that is why the Jehova Witness visit my house so often because I am the only one in my street who actually talks with them)

I swear its really something strange for most part of people here <_<`
I got used to smoke to but it was normal smokepot tobacco. It smells good. The only one I can stand normally. Vaipors are ok too.
See! You know what Im talking about. Everybody just give another portion of this cool stories about last party night being drunk and get some birbs.
Asexuality was a problem for some people I called friends D:
People what you met were rather tolerant <_< If I say that im a vegeterian people will treat me and ask why cant I be normal (
Thats true ^^ I just know kind of people who LOVE negative. Thats their nature )
Awww they are sweet guys in general ^^ I love talking to them too <3

I have to agree with the stories about their weekend adventures and how much hours they are missing... but you get the same bullshit talk from people who don't drink (much) when they tell you how many "chickas" they had and such and such...

If asexuality is a problem for them, tell them that this is a topic that only touches you and your wife. Getting a bit sharp on those private topics is okey, but don't let that go too deep under your skin. You are who you are and you choose what you do.

Well you have to expect to get some questions when you out yourself as vegetarian. They are curious *why* you choose to not eat meat. And when you bring up good arguments for that and don't let it brake out in a fight of "you have to become a vegetarian too because you are killing them" they will not bother you too much with it. A good friend of mine is vegetarian ( even thou he goes to the gym and eats tons of proteins), we never were bothered by it. He once said it, explained why and that was it. (Plus it is neat to have someone else have to choose the restaurant when the question "where do you want to grab lunch" comes up :P )

For negativity loving people.... I can't help you on that front, because I never really faced one. I would ask them what they like.. and then dig deeper in the topics they like. Even if he hates god and the world and all humans.,... you can have a nice chat about cute kitten videos :3

I still wish you Happy Birthday! Mine werent as cheerful either in the past years, yet its never too late to find what you love and use those skills to be useful! We're both without education, so we're on the same boat. People like positive attitude so I'm sure just focus on making positive memories, even when your health cripples you, do what may distract you from it like the drawings you make! Look at how many people are cheering for you! There is still hope and it always will have hope.
Hi btw

Lol its not now, hun XD 23 April) I just already feel this coldness inside about this day D:'
The thing that cripps me that they cheer me only because they think that all this art are mine. But you know how I draw. I showed you few times lol.
Btw, hi! Long time havenet heard news from you. Whats up?

23 APRIL???! literally 3 days after mine ahaaaa!!!! Yeh, I do get the creeps because of poopy memories. But hey, as long you have fun in that day, you get to make new ones to help :)
Lot had happened, like, a lot. if you want, we can chit chat on skype or telegram :>

Yep ) The last time we`ve spoken it was few days after your B-day XD
Ill poke you todays evening )

What is my god damn purpose?

I don't know, but your art brings joy to my life. It's seriously awesome art. Thank you, and Happy Birthday. :]

What Ive done for all this time?Being awesome


I have no friends because I cant be a good friendYou're my friend c:


I have no normal job [...] No education too or even just some mad skills in something.What is a 'normal' job anyway! Sitting on a desk, taking care of paperwork?. You do not want 'normal' p:
And it is not too late about getting more educated about something you love!


I still dont know what to do with my life. What is my god damn purpose?THAT is a big question. It's actually one of the big questions - one I didn't really figure out myself so far as well S:
So no worries about that!


Every year I promise to become better that I am. For no purpose. I still didnt safe anybody. Still didnt create something.You did create two amazing things for me, even three if you count in that Christmas package exchange and made me pretty happy with those ^-^. I bet you also made a lot of other people feeling very great with those
You don't need to safe the whole world at once dear c:



I dont think that my health statement will ever let me do something difficult.What's wrong? D:

I really wish I knew what to say to you. D:

All I can say is you two as a couple deliver some amazing work, and are very pleasant people to talk to and deal with. I hope that counts for something!