I do not understand people sometimes. Why would you give your word about something important, life changing, and that affects another person's health, then not follow through? Is it fear that drives people to go back on their word, or just a lack of basic respect? Is it really so hard to do what you say these days? To injure someone else's health, job, or mental state over things like this is just unfathomable to me. I grew up with a basic code of honor that you follow. I have that honor code carved into my soul, and to change it would be nearly impossible. Some of that code are things like.


Never speak a promise unless you intend to keep it.
Never cheat on someone. If you are willing to cheat, that means you do not love them enough to work through the issues you are having. Just break up with them.
Be true to those you call friend, or family.
Those you call family are not always blood, but the family you choose is stronger then any blood ties. (Yes you can choose blood family too.)
If something is worth having, it is worth fighting for.
If you do not love someone enough to fight for them, they are not meant to be yours.
Resolve conflicts quickly, as time does not heal wounds for all people. For many it actually makes them far worse.
Always make time for those closest to you.
Do not ask for things you are not willing to give in return, such as respect, trust, honesty.
Do not show disrespect to someone unless it is earned. And even then try to be respectful if at all possible.


Are these simple things to much for society today? Maybe it is because of where and how I was raised, in a small town where there was literally nothing to do but go outside and make friends or entertain yourself. Maybe it is because I grew up poor, and earned everything I have owned since the age of 12 (besides basic school clothes and supplies.) Maybe it was being taught responsibility at the ripe age of 9, having to help raise my little sisters. I don't know. But it seems since moving to Colorado that no one I meet has moral values. They are flighty, disrespectful, haughty, rude, and seem to lack a basic honor. And this isn't to say everyone here is like that. I have only been here about a year and I'm not exactly the most social of creatures. But those who have taken the time to get to know me seem to follow this pattern. I wish I understood this better. It's unfathomable to me to even consider acting this way. And every time I meet someone like this, I'm left speechless and in shock that people treat others like that.


I just don't get it...I wish I did.