I admit I was trying to write up an update journal earlier in the week, but apparently tabbing out on your phone wipes away all that got written, so I had a quiet rage and didn't wanna write up a new journal till now. So yeah, another attempt at an update journal.

I haven't been able to draw a whole lot lately due to my work. Even more annoyingly, my PC tends to not let me load in either my streaming program(s) or properly sync my tablet to my art program; leading to frustration and rebooting my PC for a second or third time. And if things align and they both work, it is very likely my stream will end up having hiccups with overall cpu usage, and I don't know what to fix up to improve the quality... I had come to the conclusion that I do better art wise actually streaming, but the lack of time management and the soul crushing drain that is working in retail makes streaming a bit of an issue. Even when I tell myself, or tell a friend to remind me, it doesn't happen either.
So yeah, to those pondering about my lack of art, I super suck at keeping on the ball; especially when under stress.

Also more car issues; this time regarding the tabs. However to get the tabs, I need to do some repairs to said car, but again with rent and bills eating most of my budget, car problems become serious issues. On top of that, work either from me or my brother tend to prevent me getting the car in to get worked on. Eh, I guess this is normal. Regarding the car, I think one of the engine pumps isn't functioning properly, there's some wear on the tire axles, and something regarding likely age; I don't fully know, I'm not a car person. Though if I don't get the tabs renewed, my car will get towed and etc.

Admittedly, my birthday is coming up at the end of this month; and it's gonna end up like the last couple years. Eh, I'm used to it by now; nothing planned and nothings likely gonna happen. Though I will point out, the Ratchet and Clank movie airs the day afterwards, so that might be something. Still likely not gonna have enough time and justification to drag myself off to go see it. Oh well.

So yeah ranting aside, art is sluggish, stream options are pigeon held, depression and lack of drive is at another high; yes I have soul crushing work but having to manage all my issues with so little to work with make things quite bleak. Eventually I'll get a couple stuff posted; but first I gotta work on owed stuff before having to go to work.