So I'll go ahead and tell everyone what is going on.

I took a pregnancy test this week, because of gross things I won't discuss here. It came back positive, and I flipped shit, cause the only guy I have been with since Sept of last year, and I just broke up. It was a faint positive, and I took several tests, all came back the same. I was planning on waiting to tell him until a week or two farther along, when I would have been far enough along that any test, dr or otherwise would show a 100% positive.

Two days later, I started getting really bad pains in my lower stomach, and started bleeding really bad (This was yesterday). Today I'm still bleeding really bad and been having dizzy spells and nearly fainting several times. I'm pale, in pain, and trying to just push through it. But I got scared, and decided to try to go ahead and tell him even though I KNEW it was going to blow up in my face....and boy did it ever.

He refused to see me face to face, and instead insisted on calling. My phone never rang, but I got a voicemail asking me to call him back. So I did, and I told him. I told him everything, and that it was MY problem, MY responsibility, MY issue. He started crying and repeating over and over again that he didn't know what to do. I told him not everything can be fixed. Sometimes you have to just deal with things, cause they can't be fixed or changed, and his mother grabbed the phone.

She verbally attacked me over and over again, demanding that I go to a doctor, and get tests to prove it's his kid, ect. Refused to let him speak for himself, and pretty much told me if I wanted him to be part of any of this I would have to go through HER and her alone. I finally got her to put him on the phone, and he was back to being cold, no tears or anything, and repeated almost word for word what she told him to say before handing him the phone, and I cut him off. I asked a simple question. "If this isn't a miscarriage and I go in and they confirm I'm pregnant did he want to be part of the child's life. To which he responded several times He didn't know, and that I was trying to bully him without giving him choices. I repeated that I was giving him a choice. I do NOT want financial help from him, I do NOT want any assistance from him. If he wants to be part of this situation, then I will bring him into it and he can be part of the child's life. If not, then I would raise it without his help, or involvement. He said He wasn't ready to be a father, and I said "There is my answer, goodbye." He said goodbye, and I hung up.

I'm done being attacked for this. I used birth control. It's not perfect. I haven't been with another man, nor will I be until this is settled. I will not be contacting them with the results. This chapter of my life that included him in any way is closed. I knew there were others behind him, pushing things farther then they should have gone. I just didn't realize the extent until today. So I might soon be a mother of two, or I might be getting major medical work done soon the ensure everything passed without issue. I don't know. All I know is I know my body, I know my life, and I know the truth. If they do not want to see it, let them be blind.

I can stand on my own two feet. I have survived being physically abused, beaten, homeless, and more, and I am stronger for it. This will only continue to make me stronger.