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what happened to me
9 years ago
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i used to have so many internet friends that i stayed invisible nearly all the time on skype
cause the second i went online a handful of people would probably try to talk to me and a lot of times i don't feel like talking
but now i'm starting to miss those days cause now i can stay online pretty much 24/7 and i might get like, one message every 2 weeks or so
did everyone just grow up and not have time for the internet anymore
did i just ignore people too much? cause i know there were a couple of people that i really mistreated by intentionally ignoring them and making sure they knew it (i was real garbage for a while and i'm sorry)
is everyone else just too busy with their in-person friends
but man there were seriously some days where i wouldn't get anything done, not even playing any video games, just sitting at my computer talking to people on skype all day long
and i lived with my brother at the time so it's not like i didn't have anybody to talk to
now he lives in Japan and we talk sometimes on the weekends when our awake times intersect but he has a real job and friends that he goes to hang out with and an actual functioning life and stuff so a lot of the time i don't get responses from him until like 3 or 4 days later
and I had like 3 friends that live around here but one I barely have anything in common with anymore so we rarely hang out, another moved to Nashville, and the third one just never tries at all to talk to me and when I invited him to my wedding, he said he couldn't afford to go (and then two weeks later posted pictures on facebook of his brand fuckin' new muscle car..............) so i've just kinda accepted at this point that he's decided to cut me out of his life
the only person who ever talks to me anymore is
MadameLollipop she's the best
and it's not like I'm trying to shame people for not talking to me; I know i barely reach out to talk to anybody anymore even though I try to make myself believe that I'm not being a pest, or at least I try not to care if I'm being a pest lol
i dunno
it just feels like everyone else is growing up while i somehow get left behind even though i'm still getting older
cause the second i went online a handful of people would probably try to talk to me and a lot of times i don't feel like talking
but now i'm starting to miss those days cause now i can stay online pretty much 24/7 and i might get like, one message every 2 weeks or so
did everyone just grow up and not have time for the internet anymore
did i just ignore people too much? cause i know there were a couple of people that i really mistreated by intentionally ignoring them and making sure they knew it (i was real garbage for a while and i'm sorry)
is everyone else just too busy with their in-person friends
but man there were seriously some days where i wouldn't get anything done, not even playing any video games, just sitting at my computer talking to people on skype all day long
and i lived with my brother at the time so it's not like i didn't have anybody to talk to
now he lives in Japan and we talk sometimes on the weekends when our awake times intersect but he has a real job and friends that he goes to hang out with and an actual functioning life and stuff so a lot of the time i don't get responses from him until like 3 or 4 days later
and I had like 3 friends that live around here but one I barely have anything in common with anymore so we rarely hang out, another moved to Nashville, and the third one just never tries at all to talk to me and when I invited him to my wedding, he said he couldn't afford to go (and then two weeks later posted pictures on facebook of his brand fuckin' new muscle car..............) so i've just kinda accepted at this point that he's decided to cut me out of his life
the only person who ever talks to me anymore is
MadameLollipop she's the bestand it's not like I'm trying to shame people for not talking to me; I know i barely reach out to talk to anybody anymore even though I try to make myself believe that I'm not being a pest, or at least I try not to care if I'm being a pest lol
i dunno
it just feels like everyone else is growing up while i somehow get left behind even though i'm still getting older
people just grow apart unfortunately
but if i'm online on skype, chances are i'm open to talking to anybody (if i don't wanna talk to people i just go invisible)
though there are times when i forget to log out before i leave for work or something, so if i don't respond for hours then that's likely what happened
You much for texting, also?
As for friends from years ago.. I don't actually talk to most of them anymore. It's weird. Mostly just newer friends populate my recent chats. I was looking at pictures I had from furmeets years ago and realized only one other person from then still goes. The crowd just changed over time.
I think a lot of this honestly has to do with the fact that i work in a restaurant. My restaurant job is the reason I can't go to church and keep up with the friends I had there - Sundays are the busiest days for restaurants, so they can't really afford to let me have those off, and weekends are also extremely busy, but all of my friends, even on the internet it seems, if they plan something, it's always on weekends, so I just end up having to sit out of most planned events unless i feel like it's worth taking unpaid days off (and frustrating my co-workers; we can't always find a replacement for people who take weekend days off and end up shorthanded)
and it's not like i really wanna see a lot of these old friends again; i've tried to reconnect with a couple of people i knew from a few years ago, but for the most part, there were a good many that i didn't really get along with when i think about it
Things would be so much easier if everyone just stuck to the same one, but people get dissatisfied and leave.