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I Think It's Time To Say This!
10 years ago
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Before you read I'm absolutely no pro when it comes to this English crap however I do try my best to use all the crap they teach you in writing class .
Earlier way back in September I was fighting depression. The depression had been a problem for quite some time at this point for me where I had actually thought about killing my self it was that bad. But the only think that was stopping me from doing that was knowing if I ended my life would mean I would be leaving a lot of people that love and care about me. I also think another reason was due to the fact I personally just can't bring my self to talk about me feelings and how I feel as well as what's bothering me. I really do think the reason I couldn't bring my self to talk about how I felt has something to do with being neglected by my biological mom and possibly being abused my her mom before I was adopted. However I think the main cause of it was me bottling up my feelings as well as having some trust problems which makes sense considering my situation when I was younger as well as being picked on all the time due to my normally quite nature. By allowing my self to bottle up all my emotions whenever someone said or did anything to me that I considered threatening I lashed out in complete anger kinda like I was possessed or something. But now I have mainly cleared out the depression at least for now and I have a classmate that hates me for some reason to hank for that because it finally got me to my breaking point where I had to do something about it so I told the only person I really trusted about it which was my AP(Assistant Principal). After I had told him about it he had to call my parents and blah blah blah couldn't go to school till they as well as the counselor I had to see thought I was ok to go back to school. And yes I couldn't even bring my self to talk to my adoption parents about it even though I've known them practically my entire life mainly because I didn't want them to worry as well as me not knowing how to talk to them about it at them time. Anyways just thought I'd share this.
Earlier way back in September I was fighting depression. The depression had been a problem for quite some time at this point for me where I had actually thought about killing my self it was that bad. But the only think that was stopping me from doing that was knowing if I ended my life would mean I would be leaving a lot of people that love and care about me. I also think another reason was due to the fact I personally just can't bring my self to talk about me feelings and how I feel as well as what's bothering me. I really do think the reason I couldn't bring my self to talk about how I felt has something to do with being neglected by my biological mom and possibly being abused my her mom before I was adopted. However I think the main cause of it was me bottling up my feelings as well as having some trust problems which makes sense considering my situation when I was younger as well as being picked on all the time due to my normally quite nature. By allowing my self to bottle up all my emotions whenever someone said or did anything to me that I considered threatening I lashed out in complete anger kinda like I was possessed or something. But now I have mainly cleared out the depression at least for now and I have a classmate that hates me for some reason to hank for that because it finally got me to my breaking point where I had to do something about it so I told the only person I really trusted about it which was my AP(Assistant Principal). After I had told him about it he had to call my parents and blah blah blah couldn't go to school till they as well as the counselor I had to see thought I was ok to go back to school. And yes I couldn't even bring my self to talk to my adoption parents about it even though I've known them practically my entire life mainly because I didn't want them to worry as well as me not knowing how to talk to them about it at them time. Anyways just thought I'd share this.
