Honestly how i can even put this into words just recently got a refund from a one of my artists that I had commissioned honestly I'm not so sure if I want to buy commissions anymore I wait too long I understand everyone has a bad time in life, but in honesty don't tell someone you're going to do something then turn around and not do it it makes you look bad as an artist itself and as a person so just do yourself a favor don't commission if you can't uphold a promise just take care of your issues first then worry about art like that later this journal is not directed at anyone rightfully they can be directed to the world I don't care as much as I love the fandom as much as I love the artwork, I just think hell I'm just going to be blunt I think I'm going to deactivate my fa account and be done with it because recently it's been nothing but drama lies I just think it's time to let go honestly I don't know for a fact if I will or not but I'm taking a break from furaffinty deviantART all the websites really I've got too much on my plate and being even more disappointed from artist and well everything it's just not really worth the effort no more I'm sorry