Not a suicide note, just my honest feelings. I'll continue living in this world as long as I can. I ain't leaving for any reason, unless it would save the lives of one or more people I care about.

But, in all honesty, if dying in this world would give me a second life in Zootopia, then I would be fine with it. I'd be scared, but... I'd die. If I could fix my mistakes in that world, in that place that is so beautifully imperfect, then maybe I could forgive my failures in this one.

Honestly, the characters of Bogo, Nick, and Judy... Even Clawhauser, I'd give anything to actually meet them. Even if my appearance could possibly change in that other world, even if my memories could conceivably disappear. Even if I became the only human in that world... I would give anything to find myself there. If I could, if I was granted any form short of selling my soul to the devil, I would make that choice so that I could fix who I've become.

No, not my sexuality. Me. This unconsciously selfish, self-loathing, high school teenager who feels trapped in a world were he can not make his own choices and can barely feel anything anymore. A kid who finds himself unable to make a decision because he is so indecisive that two roads might as well be a thousand.

So, yeah, if I was able to exist in Zootopia, I would without hesitation. Ideally, though, I would be able to experience both worlds continuously.