So something's been wrong with me for two weeks. I think its mostly stress and frustration. I have no outlet for it and caused me to drag down into deep depression. The man thing is people in my house are preventing me from working, so now i gotta quit my job. you would think after a year and half of working at home that they would know not to bum rush my office while i'm working, but nope. So many times people have put me at risk for getting fired.

So i am just saying fuck it. Nikki's school has all these tests to take at his college. We're prepping to go out to California and i'm putting in my notice for work. We're pretty much just going to spend the summer in california then probably come back here. I'll probably find some work to pay the bills we have, get on the work program, and try to give plasma. I say try cause the one in orange does not know how to stick people with small veins. I usually end up going to van nuys.

Why? I just want a break from the craziness of life in tn. Its not a life for me, but i have to consider bubs. I should be up for section 8 in September, so i don't want to ruin that.

Mostly we're taking it one step at a time. Its sort of a dangerous step cause I took loans out to get my car, but I'm going to get myself fired eventually if i stay as I am. I'd rather quit and be able to come back later when I have a place of my own and am sure I won't get fired from people randomly running in my office to tell me things that are not important.