What happens when a heart is broken, but the meaning never clear?

when the heart is destroyed, but the reason never known?

when time moves on, and people change?

what happens to that heart, i ask you that?

was the heart accused of things that weren't true?

branded a liar, but never telling a lie?

and what of the love the heart once felt?

with this great void, will it ever cease?

with the means of it's decease still unknown?

these things to me are still unknown, as unknown as the reasons for the parting between me and my sweet Nevin, i know not how it came about, only that i have been branded a liar and many other harsh things, i no not if i did these things of which i have been accused, but the lingering of the answer to these questions, causes my heart to still yet bleed, for Nevin. i loved her with all my heart, was overjoyed when she was my mother, and almost died happy when she was my mate, but apparently i just wasn't good enough for her.

I doubt she'll ever read this, and quite frankly, i gave up any hope of ever even being friends anymore, if you are reading this Nevin, i don't care if you tell me to go f*** myself, i still love you, even if i somehow did those things i've been accused of, my love for you will never stop, i'm sorry for what i've done, and i don't know how to make that clear to you, i want there to be peace, but i'm certain there never will be. I'm sorry for bothering you at all after we split, i had no idea i was such a bad person.

Cheers!,
-Eva