I've accused others of being whiny emo crybaby complainers, even somewhat recently. I strive to stay on the positive side of things and not be a source for drama. I hope i can vent a little frustration here without being my own worst crybaby emo complainer that I accuse others of being.

At the same time I cant specifically be sorry or apologetic if someone very specific to me, allegedly an individual friend who say they care for me and about me, pull a bit of an asshole move in a series of traded texts with me. And instead of just saying they are sorry hide behind the "I was only kidding dont get mad about it" defense... among other "psychology 101" trying to turn-the-blame-back-on-to-me defenses.

I wasn't pleasant in my reaction and response. For a striving friendly, polite, hopeful and positive sort, I will tell everyone who is reading here... I'm also very mess-with-the-bull: Get the horns reactionist. I will not be polite. (double especially if i have right to be mad and you tell me to calm down) I will not hold back. I will yell. I will swear. I will come at you with venom and spite. I do not wish or want or like to be this way, but I will also not be held to be a 'suck it up sucker' either. Make me angry then the eyes go white and Mr. McGee would not like me either.

But my larger point is, that reaction wouldn't have had to happen at all, and would not have even been necessary, if the one individual who said "oh im only kidding" too far after the fact simply chose to not start his instigating asshole attitude in the first place.