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Having Horns ain't easy
9 years ago
As a Capricorn, (which is also the zodiac I based the Devil race off of) life is a constant stretch of broken hearts and hurt feelings in your wake. It's the price of being an Earth Sign (Taurus & Virgo will understand) and having a greater foothold and control over your own emotions and feelings. This is often interpreted as having less feeling or even no feeling but that is untrue. I'm sympathetic and I am empathetic, it's just that half the time I think you're being weak and or pathetic when you let your emotions and sensibility get the better of you. I'm not unfeeling, I am a romantic, I protect and care for those I consider within my pack and I'm an artist with passion to bring forth my dream into this world. However Time is precious, my most valuable asset and I'm not going to waste it crying on someone's shoulder nor am I going to waste it being a shoulder to cry on. Will I listen to your woes and help you? It's possible as long as you don't make a habit of it. But I make it a point to not keep toxic people in my life and if you have a pattern of "woe is me" whining, arguing, drama, etc. than I'll simply remove you from my life. It's not that I can't handle conflict, on the contrary I'm very articulate and dare say devilish/cunning when it comes to debate, BUT I try to surround myself with POSITIVITY, not NEGATIVITY. There's enough awful in the world being blasted on television but I have the convenience of being able to turn the Net (I don't watch TV) off.
In short, Earth Signs in particular often get a bad name for our unfeeling, but in truth we just don't want to deal with the drama and the bullshit because there are more important things in the world. I often find myself with this mentality in many aspects. I'm an Agnostic, I don't have time to deal with religion, what I write about religion is far more fascinating then someone's fanaticism with a god or the hate of a god. I'm non-political as well. The 2 party system is shit and corporations have a stranglehold on politics anyways so it's simply not a part of my daily function to worry about which president is going to be the next to go up in front of the firing squad for the next 4 years. I have more important things to do with my life than worry and life is more important than to spend it being upset or hateful.
We were not born in this world to pay taxes and die. We were meant to lead lives dedicated to happiness and fulfillment. We were not OWED this, life doesn't owe you ANYTHING. BUT we are created to do great things and we are capable of great things, to settle for anything less is a mechanic that's been imposed upon you by controlling powers and institutions; rise above.
In short, Earth Signs in particular often get a bad name for our unfeeling, but in truth we just don't want to deal with the drama and the bullshit because there are more important things in the world. I often find myself with this mentality in many aspects. I'm an Agnostic, I don't have time to deal with religion, what I write about religion is far more fascinating then someone's fanaticism with a god or the hate of a god. I'm non-political as well. The 2 party system is shit and corporations have a stranglehold on politics anyways so it's simply not a part of my daily function to worry about which president is going to be the next to go up in front of the firing squad for the next 4 years. I have more important things to do with my life than worry and life is more important than to spend it being upset or hateful.
We were not born in this world to pay taxes and die. We were meant to lead lives dedicated to happiness and fulfillment. We were not OWED this, life doesn't owe you ANYTHING. BUT we are created to do great things and we are capable of great things, to settle for anything less is a mechanic that's been imposed upon you by controlling powers and institutions; rise above.
So anyway, just try to communicate. I love this journal, you're telling it how it is! I'm just recommending that when these people DO inadvertently come in to your life, try to give them one calm, fair warning- that way you avoid the injustice of not letting them change their behavior. Warn them that their emotions/behaviors/negativity is kind of getting to you. Even if they persist and ties are lost, at least they have your constructive criticism to help them achieve resolve in the future. You'll give them the tools to mature, control, and improve-upon their negative faults or emotions.
By doing so, you're helping improve their vision of happiness and fulfillment by setting the foundation for positive experiences to grow.
I have my Ascendant in Cancer which should give some hint as to my initial present ability, that I often come off as loving and empathetic but in truth the aspect of that which I despise is my level of empathy: I sense everything. So I end up opening the flood gates to someone's emotions when I don't even actually WANT to know, but I can't help but ask because it's bugging me and I just want the awkwardness to STOP.
Again thankfully we are prideful creatures so I'm not self-loathing like an Aquarius, but I have to admit some times it's like being in a glass case and watching what I'm doing/saying all the while banging on the glass from the inside saying "stop!"
Oh well, I can say that my level of knowledge in Astrology has helped me forgive people for their actions when in the past, I would have just wrote them off. It's helped me realize that people are merely a victim of cosmic design and it's not there fault. Of course that's just what I interpret, others can believe as they choose but Astrology has provided more guidance to me in life and made it a more enriching experience than any religion I've seen yet. Which is why I make an effort to design my own within my writing/setting ;)
Cheers,
And yesss all the way on your last paragraph
Try a three-strike rule, it may serve you better. The only way we become the best we can be is by making mistakes and learning from them (the wiser of us also learn from the mistakes of others); people shouldn't be punished just for making a mistake. Also, because we're not as wrapped-up in or as open with our emotions as some others, it can make us hard to relate to or understand at times. My last girlfriend thought I never worried about anything and never took anything too seriously....which couldn't be further from the truth, but because I didn't communicate that regularly when important issues came up, she felt that way.
Often, an issue is born simply because people take our words or actions to mean something other than we intend - I run into this issue a lot myself...and if people were just more willing to communicate, more willing to ask "are you saying x?", it could be avoided. If they aren't willing though, you need to be. It's frustrating when it feels like an unfair amount of responsibility for that is laid on you, but if you have the initiative to address it, you can ensure the problem is taken care of before it becomes the kind of problem that ends a relationship, of any sort.
That said....sometimes people just aren't who we think they are. I've turned down a lot of opportunities for relationships because I couldn't see myself with the person long-term, and I don't want to waste anyone's time or hurt anymore if I can help it. Ironically, this has still lead to hurting a fair number of people, and sometimes getting hurt, myself.. While potential is wonderful, and you may be able to see who someone could be at their best, you also need to acknowledge who they are in reality. Just because they can be an amazing individual doesn't mean they want to put in the effort to be one, which just leads to disappointment. It's similar to how people seem to never realize that you need to keep doing the same things it took to get the relationship in order to keep it.. The same holds true for everyone regarding anything else, if you are to be your best and have what you dream of, including us.
I don't put a whole lot of faith into the zodiac signs, but they do speak true of some characteristics. I LOVED your ending statement. Live life with happiness, but still being responsible. Good words.