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9 years ago
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2am the other night went to the ER for the worst pain in my life.
Shaking, hyperventilating, crying. Turns out I'm having a kidney stone.
It started up again last night.
And that's just the highlights. There has been death. There has been emotional trauma.
I don't know how I'm going to make an 11 hour drive to BLFC or sit at my Bazaar table for 6 hours (FRIDAY ONLY)
but I'm going to try my best. =S
Life doesn't want you to keep up. Life doesn't want to go easy on you.
But I'm telling myself and all of you that you're in a fight to the death with life.
Whether it's depression, guilt, fear, anger, or just plain old bad news, you have to keep going!
You have to keep walking and taking steps. You find your TRUE friends who love you no matter what,
who don't hold CONDITIONS over your head, and you put your arms around each other's shoulders, and walk TOGETHER.
I tell myself "You know what? I have my arms, I have my legs. I can hear, see, taste, touch. I have a roof over my head. I'M DOING PRETTY DAMN GOOD!"
When you're being attacked in real life, you are in a fight for your life.
You can't let fear overwhelm you, you can't curl up in a little ball.
You have to defend yourself, and you have to FIGHT BACK with EVERYTHING YOU GOT!
You go for the eyes! You attack the throat! You kick and claw and scream and flail!
YOU GO FERAL ON YOUR ATTACKER!
Life is the same thing! Depression is the same thing! Fear, anger, all of that CRAP that is POISONING your life.
All those so-called friends holding mistakes you did in your past like a tether around your neck. CUT IT LOOSE.
GO FERAL ON LIFE! This is the last Wednesday, May 11th, 2016 there will ever be! Make it count! Don't be a victim!
A true friend of mine since 1998 told me yesterday
"Regret is just a tether holding you to the past. You cant move forward with it wrapped around your throat."
Drop all that dead weight. Shrug it off like a backpack. Do it now. You can feel that weight.
You can feel that pressure. You can feel that stranglehold around your neck.
And I'm telling you...it doesn't take a feat of strength to get rid of it. Just shrug it off and walk forward.
Just unclasp that death grip around your neck. And walk forward. One. Step. At. A. Time.
Life is too damned short to wallow and feel regret and "if only I did this". You did what you could.
Keep moving forward. Learn from any mistakes. Move forward. Just. Keep. Swimming. Dammit.
Another friend gave me a wooden carving the size of a softball. I didn't understand what it was.
"Look closely...it is a man, curled up into a ball, his head in his hands. This symbolizes you are the cause and solution to all your problems."
The answer to your problems is you. You can turn them off. You have the solution. The only thing holding you back is you.
FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS
GET OUT THERE
ALWAYS BELIEVE YOU CAN
CREATE EVERY DAY
THE ONLY TIME YOU RUN OUT OF CHANCES IS WHEN YOU STOP TAKING THEM
I'll see you all at BLFC.
<3 Grrrwolf
Shaking, hyperventilating, crying. Turns out I'm having a kidney stone.
It started up again last night.
And that's just the highlights. There has been death. There has been emotional trauma.
I don't know how I'm going to make an 11 hour drive to BLFC or sit at my Bazaar table for 6 hours (FRIDAY ONLY)
but I'm going to try my best. =S
Life doesn't want you to keep up. Life doesn't want to go easy on you.
But I'm telling myself and all of you that you're in a fight to the death with life.
Whether it's depression, guilt, fear, anger, or just plain old bad news, you have to keep going!
You have to keep walking and taking steps. You find your TRUE friends who love you no matter what,
who don't hold CONDITIONS over your head, and you put your arms around each other's shoulders, and walk TOGETHER.
I tell myself "You know what? I have my arms, I have my legs. I can hear, see, taste, touch. I have a roof over my head. I'M DOING PRETTY DAMN GOOD!"
When you're being attacked in real life, you are in a fight for your life.
You can't let fear overwhelm you, you can't curl up in a little ball.
You have to defend yourself, and you have to FIGHT BACK with EVERYTHING YOU GOT!
You go for the eyes! You attack the throat! You kick and claw and scream and flail!
YOU GO FERAL ON YOUR ATTACKER!
Life is the same thing! Depression is the same thing! Fear, anger, all of that CRAP that is POISONING your life.
All those so-called friends holding mistakes you did in your past like a tether around your neck. CUT IT LOOSE.
GO FERAL ON LIFE! This is the last Wednesday, May 11th, 2016 there will ever be! Make it count! Don't be a victim!
A true friend of mine since 1998 told me yesterday
"Regret is just a tether holding you to the past. You cant move forward with it wrapped around your throat."
Drop all that dead weight. Shrug it off like a backpack. Do it now. You can feel that weight.
You can feel that pressure. You can feel that stranglehold around your neck.
And I'm telling you...it doesn't take a feat of strength to get rid of it. Just shrug it off and walk forward.
Just unclasp that death grip around your neck. And walk forward. One. Step. At. A. Time.
Life is too damned short to wallow and feel regret and "if only I did this". You did what you could.
Keep moving forward. Learn from any mistakes. Move forward. Just. Keep. Swimming. Dammit.
Another friend gave me a wooden carving the size of a softball. I didn't understand what it was.
"Look closely...it is a man, curled up into a ball, his head in his hands. This symbolizes you are the cause and solution to all your problems."
The answer to your problems is you. You can turn them off. You have the solution. The only thing holding you back is you.
FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS
GET OUT THERE
ALWAYS BELIEVE YOU CAN
CREATE EVERY DAY
THE ONLY TIME YOU RUN OUT OF CHANCES IS WHEN YOU STOP TAKING THEM
I'll see you all at BLFC.
<3 Grrrwolf
6 hours at a table on Friday only, wow, that sucks, it reminds me of the crap that happened to me at the most resent con that I went to.
I hope that luck starts to change, and I got to take the same advice on looking at the future, not the past.
Try to have a great time at the con, with I could make it, but I'm still out of the loop.
So much pain but so grateful to have it done before the drive. The con was AMAZING!
Being at the table for just one day was perfect, and I got to hang out with people
in one long class reunion (without the jerks from gym class!)
I...wish I could share this like I do on Facebook man... Wow, never seen a more motivating journal..
I raise a paw to how your handling your problem, I'm with ya 110% bud. I know about dealing with negativity, but my problems are nothing compared to yours, sending my love and prayers to ya bud. Always stay possible and never give up, I take heed to my own words and now I can do the same with yours.~
Fortunately things worked out just before BLFC, the kidney stone happend, and I had an amazing con.
We have to keep on, man.
Thanks Cyber. Fortunately the kidney stone happened before the con did and I was able to enjoy an amazing weekend. =3
...because as of right now, you are one of, if not THE coolest fur I know!
Dawwwrf, thank you ACe, I just try to do my best is all.
Best of luck with that kidney stone. I haven't heard anything fun about them, so you may have quite an ordeal ahead of you get rid of it. *huggles*
*squeezes back*
I didn't know you'd had a kidney stone when we were at BLFC.
I've had several and they are no fun at all.
So I do sympathize...A lot.
Well, the saturday dinner run hopefully made up for some of the suck.
We'll have to do that again at a future con.
-Badger-
And absolutely, Saturday dinner was fantastic! It was great to spend time with everyone!