I really want to do some art. But I never seem to have the inspiration and/or the time. I look and see I have all these projects I've started for people but... I don't want to work on them, even though I feel like I should finish them before starting on other stuff. Yet I still feel the desire to start new things. Does this make me a masochist? A sucker for pain? Maybe I just lack follow-through? I haven't finished an art project since I did that reference picture of Shivani.

Then there's the matter of time. It seems that whenever I really want to draw, or paint, I am under a time constraint and cannot work this desire through because I have to go do something (usually not of my own volition). Then I have the time and... poof! No inspiration. I'm lost for what to make. Even my "little" projects are extremely involved. I just can't do "speed painting" or simple pictures, no... I'm too obsessed with detail. If I can make it look really good, I don't want to stop until it gets there. Still... I lose interest easily, too... knowing I have to do the rest of that detail, painstaking as my hand cramps up.

FML...