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F*ck Being Passionate
9 years ago
Edit: In all honesty, I feel like I just made this journal to perhaps...idk passive-aggressively blow off steam perhaps, (a weak flow of steam though.) I'm well aware of how I try to make other furs feel better or comfortable, through RPs or just talking but...it's at times like the details listed below that I, now realize...while I am a main source of comfort for multiple furs, (big and small)...I barely have anyone myself that I can go to for consoling when I feel down or insecure. Far as I know it's only one person...my big baby brother, Rison. (Shown on my profile page). So...I'm not sure how many furs or folks I personally know will see this but I just want you to know...if I've ever been impatient or...hurt your feelings in any way...I'm sorry.
Passion, drive...personal motivation. I would say just f*ck it all.
Like my new personal quote, (shown on my profile mentions), sometimes being passionate will lead to your enthusiasm bringing forth a moment of ruin, or others just not giving a sh!t about how much you want to do to something, they'll just take a dump all over it.
The latter has happened to me...oh so many more times than the former.
Particularly when trying to audition for a play, (3 individual plays at that in the past few years). 1st was an Agatha Christie play, (simply because I wanted to do some acting), and at least in that case the reason I wasn't picked was because age or appearance. The 2nd and 3rd were plays I REALLY wanted to be a part of, (Sweeney Todd, {my favorite musical from the stage}, and One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest which I read between this Christmas and this February as research for the play), but F*CK no...I don't get picked for any of them.
Then of course there's the BS you get in college with certain teachers, in my case math class. Had to take Pre-Calculus TWICE, even though online homework and online quizzes were A's and B's, the TEACHER kept giving me D's, F's, and C's on exams...when I was at least expecting a C or B. (I need a C, or ..70/100, to pass and count as credit towards my degree). I just had finals this Tuesday, and frankly I won't be surprised if that BITCH gives me anything less than what I need, (a B or about 80 or 85 out of 100), to pass the class and the credit counted...granted I do NOT need to take that class anyway if I fail AGAIN.
As for the former...well, let's just say my motivation or enthusiasm in certain rps has led to me being...impatient at times, whether seemingly impatient or very impatient, thus...causing the rp to end abruptly because nobody likes dealing with someone who lacks sufficient patience.
Oh yeah, here's another part of that, other folks not giving a sh!t about your passion, that might come true this year. I applied for at least two jobs BOTH in walking distance, (part-time jobs for summer), one at a vet clinic which I WANT to work at cause if I get my degree I want to work with animals at a good zoo so a vet clinic is a start, and the other is a snow-cone joint. What I won't be surprised by is....throughout summer, they, not once offer me a position at the vet clinic no matter what, nor does the snow-cone joint.
P.S./Edit: Thank you, new watchers even though you likely won't be seeing much content or submissions from me...
Passion, drive...personal motivation. I would say just f*ck it all.
Like my new personal quote, (shown on my profile mentions), sometimes being passionate will lead to your enthusiasm bringing forth a moment of ruin, or others just not giving a sh!t about how much you want to do to something, they'll just take a dump all over it.
The latter has happened to me...oh so many more times than the former.
Particularly when trying to audition for a play, (3 individual plays at that in the past few years). 1st was an Agatha Christie play, (simply because I wanted to do some acting), and at least in that case the reason I wasn't picked was because age or appearance. The 2nd and 3rd were plays I REALLY wanted to be a part of, (Sweeney Todd, {my favorite musical from the stage}, and One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest which I read between this Christmas and this February as research for the play), but F*CK no...I don't get picked for any of them.
Then of course there's the BS you get in college with certain teachers, in my case math class. Had to take Pre-Calculus TWICE, even though online homework and online quizzes were A's and B's, the TEACHER kept giving me D's, F's, and C's on exams...when I was at least expecting a C or B. (I need a C, or ..70/100, to pass and count as credit towards my degree). I just had finals this Tuesday, and frankly I won't be surprised if that BITCH gives me anything less than what I need, (a B or about 80 or 85 out of 100), to pass the class and the credit counted...granted I do NOT need to take that class anyway if I fail AGAIN.
As for the former...well, let's just say my motivation or enthusiasm in certain rps has led to me being...impatient at times, whether seemingly impatient or very impatient, thus...causing the rp to end abruptly because nobody likes dealing with someone who lacks sufficient patience.
Oh yeah, here's another part of that, other folks not giving a sh!t about your passion, that might come true this year. I applied for at least two jobs BOTH in walking distance, (part-time jobs for summer), one at a vet clinic which I WANT to work at cause if I get my degree I want to work with animals at a good zoo so a vet clinic is a start, and the other is a snow-cone joint. What I won't be surprised by is....throughout summer, they, not once offer me a position at the vet clinic no matter what, nor does the snow-cone joint.
P.S./Edit: Thank you, new watchers even though you likely won't be seeing much content or submissions from me...
Maybe you need to take a break from acting? Have you tried just being alone and being yourself?
Apparently work is all that matters in math.
And yeah I need someone to tend to or comfort me.
And yes I like acting it's just the only theatre I can Rey out at has refused me those three times
Well what would you like to know? I'm Straight, 25 year old nerd, likes animals, plants, small children. I lost my father a couple years ago, but my world didn't end. Florida is very nice, haven't been to Disne world again, but I usually only go once every 7 years, so I'll go again when I'm 28?