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9 years ago
Dear watchers,
Kind of frustrated with this website a lot and might give Furrynetwork a try and maybe brush up my weasyl again.
I'm still most active on Twitter but that's more real-life and shitposting rather than my drawings.
Just like always: making fursuits keep me too occupied to draw much.
About that fursuit-making.., I am looking for a parttime job. Why?
1. income
I work as much as I can and I really don't earn much and it's frustrating. People come up and tell me 1k for a partial is too much money while you would need to earn around 2k a month to actually really make a living and I can't make two partials a month, if you catch my drift here.
2.physical health
Sitting all day, being bend over to draw and cut patterns, pc screen in front of me to keep myself not-bored while handcrafting items, being in a room without much sunlight, huffing gluefumes in the same room I sleep in, having to be chilly because the room needs the rooms open for ventilation due to the glue fumes and well there's probably more that makes this an unhealthy job as I'm doing it.
3. mental health
Being alone constantly makes you relive bad memories and arguments you have with people and let's say you depress yourself often with your own thoughts at some points, no people around that make you feel human, a lot of things about this job make me frustrated/tired and irritated and of course with every job in the world there are parts you dislike but it still feels like it needs to be mentioned.
I work so much I even often work weekends so I have to miss out on doing things with friends or actually meeting people so I can "go out" sometime, I'm freaking 21 and barely live like I'm young.
4.insecurities
Being a fursuit lover and maker in a critical fandom makes it difficult to post your work online sometimes. Yes I have imperfections in my work and sometimes they can't be fixed anymore or I would have to pretty much remake the whole thing and I would hate for people to gossip about it. Another insecurity is that I don't think I can have a full income too soon with this job and my parents need to see the progress so I could leave house someday. And something that needs to be thought of as well: I might not want to do this untill I die. I might want to do other jobs like normal people y'know? and with me only building on my fursuit-making skill I would be worthless in the normal world because that skill didn't teach me how to work in stores or help people so if I would apply for a job I would lack any skill they aquire and I would be forced to keep making suits OR be jobless, I don't want to be stuck on anything in my life.
So yeah! If I manage to get a parttime job I will finish the projects in my queue and maybe take on smaller projects but mostly focus on refurbing my work and making myself things, and maybe friends could commission me but I would do it in a slower-pace because it won't be my main income anymore!
What is going good in life then?
Since april I took dancefitness lessons that make me all inspired to live healthier, train my body more to my liking and to learn a skill called choreographed dancing :D
The dancelessons also inspired me to get more out of life, I'm not sure why. Just that not everything in my life has to be furry to be enjoyable.
And I'm glad that people are really into the fursuits I make, it feels good to know you're making things people want to have. I feel like I'm getting better and better at it.
Enough rambling! I think I just really needed to get this all off of my chest I guess!
I'm still most active on Twitter but that's more real-life and shitposting rather than my drawings.
Just like always: making fursuits keep me too occupied to draw much.
About that fursuit-making.., I am looking for a parttime job. Why?
1. income
I work as much as I can and I really don't earn much and it's frustrating. People come up and tell me 1k for a partial is too much money while you would need to earn around 2k a month to actually really make a living and I can't make two partials a month, if you catch my drift here.
2.physical health
Sitting all day, being bend over to draw and cut patterns, pc screen in front of me to keep myself not-bored while handcrafting items, being in a room without much sunlight, huffing gluefumes in the same room I sleep in, having to be chilly because the room needs the rooms open for ventilation due to the glue fumes and well there's probably more that makes this an unhealthy job as I'm doing it.
3. mental health
Being alone constantly makes you relive bad memories and arguments you have with people and let's say you depress yourself often with your own thoughts at some points, no people around that make you feel human, a lot of things about this job make me frustrated/tired and irritated and of course with every job in the world there are parts you dislike but it still feels like it needs to be mentioned.
I work so much I even often work weekends so I have to miss out on doing things with friends or actually meeting people so I can "go out" sometime, I'm freaking 21 and barely live like I'm young.
4.insecurities
Being a fursuit lover and maker in a critical fandom makes it difficult to post your work online sometimes. Yes I have imperfections in my work and sometimes they can't be fixed anymore or I would have to pretty much remake the whole thing and I would hate for people to gossip about it. Another insecurity is that I don't think I can have a full income too soon with this job and my parents need to see the progress so I could leave house someday. And something that needs to be thought of as well: I might not want to do this untill I die. I might want to do other jobs like normal people y'know? and with me only building on my fursuit-making skill I would be worthless in the normal world because that skill didn't teach me how to work in stores or help people so if I would apply for a job I would lack any skill they aquire and I would be forced to keep making suits OR be jobless, I don't want to be stuck on anything in my life.
So yeah! If I manage to get a parttime job I will finish the projects in my queue and maybe take on smaller projects but mostly focus on refurbing my work and making myself things, and maybe friends could commission me but I would do it in a slower-pace because it won't be my main income anymore!
What is going good in life then?
Since april I took dancefitness lessons that make me all inspired to live healthier, train my body more to my liking and to learn a skill called choreographed dancing :D
The dancelessons also inspired me to get more out of life, I'm not sure why. Just that not everything in my life has to be furry to be enjoyable.
And I'm glad that people are really into the fursuits I make, it feels good to know you're making things people want to have. I feel like I'm getting better and better at it.
Enough rambling! I think I just really needed to get this all off of my chest I guess!
