Well was working yesterday and got a call from my mom.

My brother had cut himself, went to his car leaving my 15 year old sister alone. Hooked a hose to his exhaust into his truck. When she came out looking for him he took off. The heat melted the hose close. No cop saw him and pulled him over till he was like 3 cities away. Hes been in the hospital, hes okay, but we cant see him for days. But the thing is my sister called the cops because my brother took a picture of the hose into his truck and sent it to his friends on snap chat who then sent it to my sister. (my family finds it weird if really trying to commit suicide you wouldnt take a picture. And thats coming from me who attempted suicide in august)

Today I had to deal with that more as well as crazy work things including the manager getting in a fight with her boyfriend whos an employee and they always work together. Where he screamed and cussed at us for no reason when hes not even the manager. Ive already had a panic attack other day at work. I also burst into tears at one point in past few days because of just over load it came out of no where. I dont feel sleepy tired but i feel like exhausted. My face has been hot for no reason for days as well as a small headache that refuses to go away with any kind of medicine or remedy.

I want to call in tomorrow but I need the money. Tho at $8 an hour thats only $64 for the whole day before tax. So Idk. I kind of want to call in sick and just listen to soothing music. And sing and try and get commissions done as well as take some in and try to earn that $64 id be missing out without the stress of being around people at a job where there are as many mangaers there as normal employees. (really like why do i have 5 managers yelling at me to each do a different thing and then 5 normal employees all in a little fricken Jimmy Johns. Can just anyone become a manager lord.)